I'm Pretty Sure

...my decision for college is pretty much permanent.

I'm not planning to attend a Cal State anytime soon. None of the schools that accepted me aren't what I wanted nor interests me. So I don't want to waste my time going to a school where I probably may not have the college life I wish. At this point I'm clueless on what is it that I want to do with my life. I'd rather not think about it right now and let the future tell me as I'm continuing my education at Community College. I'll transfer to a UC after my 2nd year so let's hope I know what I want to do by then. 99.9% likely chance of going to this direction without regrets.

My parents, especially my mother seems pleased. She thinks it's the right path to start for now and it's true. But that doesn't mean I'm doing this for her. After some longtime thinking, I realized I'm not ready to face a 4-year university just yet. I'm not willing to go into debt during my first year even if there's financial aid and loans. This is something I decided on my own and something I'm confident of doing. I need to settle things right before I continue any further at a higher education.

I feel that applying for those colleges was a waste. Then again it was a good thing just to see if I got in or not. So in the end it was all for experience and I'm glad I went through it. I just wish I knew which college to attend by now. Well whatever happens, it happens and when it does...it happens for a reason. Pretty much how life goes nowadays.

"Whenever your world starts crashing down, that's when you find me."

If you ever need anything from me, whether if it's advice or even just a conversation I'm always here. I love to help others who are in need of guidance or just someone who enjoys a friendly conversation. I've had quite a few lately with people whom I didn't expect to talk to. In the end, it was full of laughter and smiles...possibly a little bit of butterflies in my stomach. Hahah, but I guess it happens when I'm having a great time with that person. I don't know where this leads to, but I don't want to let it end just yet.

& now I lost my train of thought. Have a good day.