How can I be so careless?

Ever had a moment in your life where you just want to stop caring over things? I know it may be wrong, but enough to say that it leaves you stress free from it. I think it just depends on what it is I suppose. You wouldn't have to think too much over things going on and rather leave it aside. But what if you stopped caring for the world completely? How will it change you as a person?

Lately I haven't quite been in a normal state. By normal state I mean when I don't have the care for things that aren't important as I'm in a good mood. I don't know why I think about it and when I do I tend to get angry because the thought of it won't leave. It's stuck within your mind like you're glued to a seat. The more that I keep doing this, the more likely I'll go nuts about it. It just sucks to be in this situation.

I've thought of my situation with my best friend and I've decided to stop caring about what's going on. I think the only reason why this won't disappear is the fact that I miss talking to her and how I'm used to have her update me on her life. Apparently that hasn't been happening these days. No calls, text, NOTHING. It's like I have to figure out what's really going on through sources. Not only does this annoy me but the fact that she doesn't put any effort into at least calling me once in a while. I don't want to end up fading away from her if this keeps up. If it does lead to that point then what can I do? Things just happen and it happens for a reason. It's time that I stop caring about it and move on right? Sure. I've told myself so many freakin` times to throw the garbage and care for something with meaning. It's easier said than done.

When I think of other people and the life they live, sometimes I wish I can put myself into their shoes and see their perspective of things. I tend to compare the way my life is to theirs and see the differences and similarities. Now when reading this I'm sure you've compared yourself to people before, right? Y'know, the things they possess, what accomplishments they've made and so on. I think we do this to see what is something in our lives that we need to change in order to outshine others. You probably may feel a little inferior if you live the typical life and not the kind of life where good fortune comes to you. Believe me I don't enjoy how my life is sometimes, but I think it's harder to accept what you have. Which is why that most people aren't satisfied with everything. I think people may never be satisfied even if you feel like you have what you want. You tend to want more than what's in front of you, which in some cases may be a negative thing.

All I can say is that people should try to put a halt into caring for what others have or are doing and focus more on yourself. Remember that if you make the littlest things that can bother you so important, then it becomes an issue. Hell yes I am a hypocrite and I'm not ashamed to admit it but I'm making a statement that I, too should stop caring about useless things. I'm not alone and I know that for a fact. Hooray for imperfections.