Yup, as the title says it I'm pretty much stuck doing this blog. Why? I don't know. I've come to realize that posting blogs has been a natural attachment to me. I LOVE writing. I probably may not show it these days, but I sure do. No matter what time it is during the day, whether if it's late at night I'll blog. Plus, it's another way to let out some things I can't say to others. So I'm going to say it here.
*Caution, this may be a long one [sorry Chris]. So no need to read any of this crap.
There are some things I've been thinking about for the past few days:
One, I realized I'm easily bothered by the littlest things. No matter how unimportant it is, I happen to make it important. Then the more I think of it, the more likely it'll be a pest. I had a small flashback about filling out the Cal Grant form that's supposed to be done once FAFSA is filled out. I actually finished the Cal Grant form back in December. Woopie! Thing is, I probably made one small remark. Where it says to 'bubble this part if you'd like to submit your SAT or ACT scores rather than your GPA', I think I bubbled that. Something tells me that I possibly did. I hope I didn't so I can avoid to attach my SAT scores with the form. I will never give out my SAT scores at all. It's horrible and one of the worst test scores anyone could ever get. Lucky me, I happen to get that unlucky bug. Anyway, if I did bubble that part in, I'll just talk to my bitch of a counselor about changing it [unless she already sent it in, then there's not much I can do]. I hope she hasn't yet since it's due March 2nd. I want to make sure by sometime next week that I didn't make any remarks on that application.
Two, college college and again COLLEGE! I'm debating whether or not I should attend a community college and transfer to a CSU or UC by junior year. That won't be a problem, but I might possible regret it along the way. I applied to five CSUs and got into 2 so far and got rejected by 1. So a friend of mine recently told me to stick to the schools I applied for or at least choose the one that I'll most likely lean towards to. Honestly at this point I don't know what school. None of them are my favorites and one school I really want to go to hasn't gotten back to me about my status. So I feel like I'm wasting my time on waiting for that gawd stinkin` letter. Part of me says to give up while the other says to wait a little longer. I'm a very impatient person. I try to be as patient as I can, but there's a limit where I can't be patient any longer. Even if I tried, it's not effective. So I'm thinking back and forth about this and realize, I'll give myself a deadline as to when I'll accept the offer of going to a CSU or reject. I still have enough time to think it over, but let's face it...it's February now. I have until May to decide and I think I might just attend community college for financial reasons. Plus, it's less stressful for me anyway. Ugh, I'll find the answer on my own. Also, a friend tells me 'In order to love the college life, you have to love the college you're attending. Otherwise, it's not going to work out.' I agree with that 100%. I just have to know what I'll do by the end of this.
Finally three, working out. Ha, I've been trying [okay maybe not trying] to fight off the temptation of moping at home ever since break. I know I probably talked about this before from my past blogs [or not], but geez. I'm getting quite tired of eating food late at night. I define late at night snacks at around 2 am in the morning, eating a bigass bag of dorritos with hershey's bliss. Seriously, that's been a routine for the past week and a half. It's scary. I should have started planning this ages ago. I know I'm being redundant with this. The thought of not pushing myself to achieve a goal is pissing me off. I lack at motivation, really. It's very disappointing of me. So starting Monday, I have to start working my ass off on getting into shape, at least until prom. I don't want to gain a dress size and realize I look like a fat lard. Ugh. I think at this point my cholesterol has shot up. Oh, and I'm probably diabetic by now. Great...
[I had a paragraph about something else, but decided to delete it.]
After looking over this blog, I find this more of a rant in a way. Heh.
*Caution, this may be a long one [sorry Chris]. So no need to read any of this crap.
There are some things I've been thinking about for the past few days:
One, I realized I'm easily bothered by the littlest things. No matter how unimportant it is, I happen to make it important. Then the more I think of it, the more likely it'll be a pest. I had a small flashback about filling out the Cal Grant form that's supposed to be done once FAFSA is filled out. I actually finished the Cal Grant form back in December. Woopie! Thing is, I probably made one small remark. Where it says to 'bubble this part if you'd like to submit your SAT or ACT scores rather than your GPA', I think I bubbled that. Something tells me that I possibly did. I hope I didn't so I can avoid to attach my SAT scores with the form. I will never give out my SAT scores at all. It's horrible and one of the worst test scores anyone could ever get. Lucky me, I happen to get that unlucky bug. Anyway, if I did bubble that part in, I'll just talk to my bitch of a counselor about changing it [unless she already sent it in, then there's not much I can do]. I hope she hasn't yet since it's due March 2nd. I want to make sure by sometime next week that I didn't make any remarks on that application.
Two, college college and again COLLEGE! I'm debating whether or not I should attend a community college and transfer to a CSU or UC by junior year. That won't be a problem, but I might possible regret it along the way. I applied to five CSUs and got into 2 so far and got rejected by 1. So a friend of mine recently told me to stick to the schools I applied for or at least choose the one that I'll most likely lean towards to. Honestly at this point I don't know what school. None of them are my favorites and one school I really want to go to hasn't gotten back to me about my status. So I feel like I'm wasting my time on waiting for that gawd stinkin` letter. Part of me says to give up while the other says to wait a little longer. I'm a very impatient person. I try to be as patient as I can, but there's a limit where I can't be patient any longer. Even if I tried, it's not effective. So I'm thinking back and forth about this and realize, I'll give myself a deadline as to when I'll accept the offer of going to a CSU or reject. I still have enough time to think it over, but let's face it...it's February now. I have until May to decide and I think I might just attend community college for financial reasons. Plus, it's less stressful for me anyway. Ugh, I'll find the answer on my own. Also, a friend tells me 'In order to love the college life, you have to love the college you're attending. Otherwise, it's not going to work out.' I agree with that 100%. I just have to know what I'll do by the end of this.
Finally three, working out. Ha, I've been trying [okay maybe not trying] to fight off the temptation of moping at home ever since break. I know I probably talked about this before from my past blogs [or not], but geez. I'm getting quite tired of eating food late at night. I define late at night snacks at around 2 am in the morning, eating a bigass bag of dorritos with hershey's bliss. Seriously, that's been a routine for the past week and a half. It's scary. I should have started planning this ages ago. I know I'm being redundant with this. The thought of not pushing myself to achieve a goal is pissing me off. I lack at motivation, really. It's very disappointing of me. So starting Monday, I have to start working my ass off on getting into shape, at least until prom. I don't want to gain a dress size and realize I look like a fat lard. Ugh. I think at this point my cholesterol has shot up. Oh, and I'm probably diabetic by now. Great...
[I had a paragraph about something else, but decided to delete it.]
After looking over this blog, I find this more of a rant in a way. Heh.
i hate all of those kind of tests! I think they're all kinda pointless. I'm sure you dont have the worst test score ever haha, this one guy I heard about wrote his name on the test and then fell asleep for the whole test lol.
ReplyDeletestop eating late night snacks!!! and if you eat a snack make it something good and not a giant bag o' dorritos lol. Exercise takes some motivation, its really easy to just sit down and not move anywhere opposed to actually getting up and running around. You just gotta find that motivation!! =]
now i am sleepy and im going to bed! goodnight!
you eat in the wee hours of the night too!? haha, i've been contemplating the same exact thing except my vices are chocolate pudding and dunkaroos. maybe if we cut the amount we eat in half? ... okay that was a leap of faith right there! wow ... i'm hungry ..
ReplyDeleteI MEAN ... no more snacks!