Have you ever had a moment where you were offered an opportunity anyone could ever ask for, but in the end it wasn't what you intended to take?
As I woke up at the usual time [which was 11:30 am] yesterday, I decided to do my daily rounds on the internet, knowing that my eyes were half dead at the time. I looked over this mail from Art Institute Los Angeles and I had this sudden feeling of being interested into what was written. There's an upcoming open house on March 7th at the school where there will be reps addressing young hopefuls on what are the programs available, financial aid, etc. I was debating whether or not I should go just to take a peak. So I went to the open house site and signed myself up, but only for information purposes.
While signing up, I had a flashback from a few months ago where a rep from AI called me and did what seemed to be a mini interview via phone. She asked what were my interests and what not and I mainly said graphic designing. I then explained her on how I was once addicted to Adobe Photoshop and learned from scratch using tutorials. She was easily blown away from my story and wanted to schedule an interview. It was suppose to be a week after, but because of purposely missing her calls, it never happened.
Now why the hell did I do such a thing? Well honestly I think it was only a one time moment where I thought I wanted the opportunity. I wasn't 100% fully sure if this was something I wanted to do as a career. Being a graphic designer may seem to be a dream job, but maybe just on the side instead. I once believed that I'd have a shot to be one, knowing that I don't exactly have the full experience yet. Just because I used photoshop and did a little bit of artwork from time to time doesn't mean I have the knowledge. I could say it was a hobby from one point and that was that. Now I bet you're thinking 'Well, you could of at least give it a shot. You'll never know what the outcome would be in the end.' Either way, I probably would reject the offer. So it wouldn't exactly mean anything. Plus, I kind of have other careers in mind other than just graphic designing, although it was something I did love at one point.
I wondered from time to time if the decision I made was right. I thought of it as something I can easily get over in a day or less. But it probably took a while. Not really sure why, but the fact that I turned down an opportunity like that interview kind of affected me. I think it's a pain in general to turn down any opportunity you think wasn't made for you. I should be appreciative that it happened to me, right? There's a saying where it goes 'Opportunity only knocks once'. I probably may not have that knock ever again...at least for now.
It's pretty hard to seek for my inner potential because I'm not quite sure what is it that I want to pursue anymore. You could say I'm one of those lost, unfortunate souls whose search for the perfect career is eating my brains out. I wish I knew what I wanted to do from the start so that I wouldn't have a problem like I have at this moment. Obviously, people change their mindset overtime, so I knew this was bound to happen. Knowing myself, I have a whole damn life to figure it out and I don't need all the answers right away. I'll let time tell me what's up. Just live life and proceed.
As I woke up at the usual time [which was 11:30 am] yesterday, I decided to do my daily rounds on the internet, knowing that my eyes were half dead at the time. I looked over this mail from Art Institute Los Angeles and I had this sudden feeling of being interested into what was written. There's an upcoming open house on March 7th at the school where there will be reps addressing young hopefuls on what are the programs available, financial aid, etc. I was debating whether or not I should go just to take a peak. So I went to the open house site and signed myself up, but only for information purposes.
While signing up, I had a flashback from a few months ago where a rep from AI called me and did what seemed to be a mini interview via phone. She asked what were my interests and what not and I mainly said graphic designing. I then explained her on how I was once addicted to Adobe Photoshop and learned from scratch using tutorials. She was easily blown away from my story and wanted to schedule an interview. It was suppose to be a week after, but because of purposely missing her calls, it never happened.
Now why the hell did I do such a thing? Well honestly I think it was only a one time moment where I thought I wanted the opportunity. I wasn't 100% fully sure if this was something I wanted to do as a career. Being a graphic designer may seem to be a dream job, but maybe just on the side instead. I once believed that I'd have a shot to be one, knowing that I don't exactly have the full experience yet. Just because I used photoshop and did a little bit of artwork from time to time doesn't mean I have the knowledge. I could say it was a hobby from one point and that was that. Now I bet you're thinking 'Well, you could of at least give it a shot. You'll never know what the outcome would be in the end.' Either way, I probably would reject the offer. So it wouldn't exactly mean anything. Plus, I kind of have other careers in mind other than just graphic designing, although it was something I did love at one point.
I wondered from time to time if the decision I made was right. I thought of it as something I can easily get over in a day or less. But it probably took a while. Not really sure why, but the fact that I turned down an opportunity like that interview kind of affected me. I think it's a pain in general to turn down any opportunity you think wasn't made for you. I should be appreciative that it happened to me, right? There's a saying where it goes 'Opportunity only knocks once'. I probably may not have that knock ever again...at least for now.
It's pretty hard to seek for my inner potential because I'm not quite sure what is it that I want to pursue anymore. You could say I'm one of those lost, unfortunate souls whose search for the perfect career is eating my brains out. I wish I knew what I wanted to do from the start so that I wouldn't have a problem like I have at this moment. Obviously, people change their mindset overtime, so I knew this was bound to happen. Knowing myself, I have a whole damn life to figure it out and I don't need all the answers right away. I'll let time tell me what's up. Just live life and proceed.
Mmmm. I know something like that happened to me.. I applied for Fashion Institute of Technology... and I actually got in.. but it was for an associate degree.. but fashion.. i was considering it against Baruch truthfully. Yeah I think about it occasionally like what if I actually went there.. would I be happy and know for sure what I wanted to do.
ReplyDeleteI still don't know what to do but it's cool you know.. you still got time in a way. Don't worry you closed one door of opportunity, many more will start opening/knocking, just gotta give it time, as you said.
Mmm. You don't need to figure everything out right away anyways. It's too much work. haha. Just live life the way it is for now, make choices you want to for the moment. It's your life after all and you only live once.
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