- Horrible Headaches
- Lack of sleep = sleeping pattern ruined
- Lack of focus over certain things
- Laziness
- Easily angered.
- College fucking expenses and decisions
Wow, these are the things that basically got me heated thus far. My bad habits are dominating and it's not looking pretty. I'm more pissed at myself for not straightening myself right. There are pros and cons about being on a two month break. For the pros, I have enough time to rest and not worry one bit about school. The opposite, I sleep late and getting up late while not doing shit around the house. I constantly stare at the computer screen for hours. Talk about being a fucking loser, right? Ha. Then the whole day is over and I do the whole routine the next day. I NEED TO FUCKING CHANGE MY WAYS -_____-
A job is something I really need so that I won't always be at home all the time. I missed having it like I did during summer. At least I kept myself occupied. But having a job right now may not be a good thing considering that I still have one semester left and I gotta keep my progress up. So by the time I get to college, I'll be able to do a part-time job while going to school. Woopie. If I had a job right now, I don't think I would balance my school life well along with it. That's something I gotta work on too. My parents wouldn't even approve of me having a job at this time. Bleh.
Speaking of college, I'm now dealing with the wonderful FAFSA and this shit is fucking long. Seriously, why to we have to answer over 50 questions on this?! At least something simple would be pleasant, but I guess not. Whatever. I find this ridiculous. I need to finish that and try to plan early about this whole college expense shit. I was looking over CollegeBoard regarding CSUN's tuition costs plus room and board. Fuck, talk about annoying. Nicole and I are in negotiations of getting an apartment by CSUN [which hasn't been confirmed but is still considered as a back up plan if I don't get into CSUF.] Thing is, I may not even attend CSUF anyway, so it doesn't matter. I still am interested in CSUF though. I don't know, I don't like dealing with college decisions...it throws me off course and prevents me from picking the right one when I feel that I want BOTH. That' not likely to happen.
I'm in the mood to pretty much just say FUCK IT. But that would mean I'm only saying it rather than meaning it. I tend to do that anyway...
Nothing interesting, just something to let loose.
A job is something I really need so that I won't always be at home all the time. I missed having it like I did during summer. At least I kept myself occupied. But having a job right now may not be a good thing considering that I still have one semester left and I gotta keep my progress up. So by the time I get to college, I'll be able to do a part-time job while going to school. Woopie. If I had a job right now, I don't think I would balance my school life well along with it. That's something I gotta work on too. My parents wouldn't even approve of me having a job at this time. Bleh.
Speaking of college, I'm now dealing with the wonderful FAFSA and this shit is fucking long. Seriously, why to we have to answer over 50 questions on this?! At least something simple would be pleasant, but I guess not. Whatever. I find this ridiculous. I need to finish that and try to plan early about this whole college expense shit. I was looking over CollegeBoard regarding CSUN's tuition costs plus room and board. Fuck, talk about annoying. Nicole and I are in negotiations of getting an apartment by CSUN [which hasn't been confirmed but is still considered as a back up plan if I don't get into CSUF.] Thing is, I may not even attend CSUF anyway, so it doesn't matter. I still am interested in CSUF though. I don't know, I don't like dealing with college decisions...it throws me off course and prevents me from picking the right one when I feel that I want BOTH. That' not likely to happen.
I'm in the mood to pretty much just say FUCK IT. But that would mean I'm only saying it rather than meaning it. I tend to do that anyway...
Nothing interesting, just something to let loose.
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