I realized that these past few days have ultimately been a blur. I've dealt with one emotion to another and it goes into repetition. I didn't understand the reason for it, until I started to go into the core of the problem.
Maybe it's this whole 'senioritis' that's taking over. Heh, well that's just usual for anyone going through the same thing. I haven't started on my college applications nor have I put things into the right place. I've been caught up doing pointless things when what's really in front of me should be my first priority. As time is ticking and deadlines for college applications are nearly a month away, I'm wasting my time by being a sitting duck. I've made very little progress thus far and I'm not yet satisfied with it. Actually, I don't think I have been satisfied since school started. My grades are alright, and I'm still failing the same class which is a problem. I have not completed some of my homework assignments and I suffer during tests. Good thing I have a project for this class and I'll be able to boost my grade if I follow the procedure the right way. I'm praying for a decent grade by the end of this semester. My mom's going to be unhappy about my upcoming progress report. Bleh...I need to shake the stress out and bring in the motivation.
I've been thinking overly too much over the situation and I can't continue to put myself into deeper crap than how it is. I feel such a late bloomer at this point. Time is going so quick, I still have so much to work on, but very little time left. It freaks me out, but I know I have to keep up with the pace without losing track. Everything is stressing me over and over...so frustrating. It does put alot of pressure on my shoulders as I pass by the halls of my school. I remember freshman year it wasn't this. I didn't care enough for the next 3 years of high school simply because I was new to the environment. I wasn't sure what to expect, but as time flew by, things were getting rough. After a series of obstacles and some accomplishments, I've made it to this final year. I don't want to sit and just contemplate on the future. Instead, I want to take action to get to MY future.
I'm still taking things slowly step by step for the time being. One thing I hate the most right now is being rushed and that's not pretty. That's been happening for the past few days. Ugh, it brings me agitation when it happens. I remember a friend told me a former senior I know completed her college applications last minute, and by last minute I mean on the last few days before the deadline. She would rush through everything knowing she wasted all her time. Now I'm not going to stoop that low and put the pressure towards me. I'm still confused on where to go and it's okay. It's not like I have to know which path to take. I don't want to be too late when the time comes. It's half of the semester and this is when things get serious. This isn't the year where I slack off most of my time, yet I get more than decent grades. Things aren't looking great seeing as how my actions have affected my school life. No, I'm not doing anything to hurt myself and such, but the procrastination is the worst habit about myself. And I'm sure everyone else would say the same. I haven't been fully focused due to my lack of attention towards my homework, which I still complete even if I show little effort.
I'm not saying it's the end of the world, but a continuation of where I left off I guess. Every year feels like a new beginning, although I see more as a different chapter to my life and overall. Another huge step is college, and it's not too far away from me at this point. I have yet to tackle the upcoming obstacles standing in my way for the finish line. SAT is next weekend so do wish me luck on that! I admit, I haven't studied and I'm going to do my best at cracking that son of a gun. I might consider taking the SAT II for both english and U.S. history. Well, my knowledge for U.S. history is slightly there, but not enough. I''ll give it all I have by then, unless I decide to go only for Cal States and not UCs. But for now, I'm still hanging in there...hoping for a better outcome for all of this. Maybe all hope hasn't been lost just yet...
WHAT TO DO:
1. COLLEGE FREAKIN` APPLICATIONS.
2. Start on my essay on 'The Odyssey' this weekend. At least 3 paragraphs for a good start.
3. Work on statistics project. I still need some help on it.
4. A head start on reviewing for upcoming economics test.
5. Scholarships! I have a paper with the list of scholarships to apply for. Hizzah!
6. Think of a better excuse to explain to my mom as to why I'm currently failing a class so she won't be so angry at me :P
7. Turn in my senior portrait proofs for yearbook. ASDFGHJKL;
Random thought: A certain someone owes me a late night talk with full updates before I start scolding him for his laziness.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON TRAN <3
Maybe it's this whole 'senioritis' that's taking over. Heh, well that's just usual for anyone going through the same thing. I haven't started on my college applications nor have I put things into the right place. I've been caught up doing pointless things when what's really in front of me should be my first priority. As time is ticking and deadlines for college applications are nearly a month away, I'm wasting my time by being a sitting duck. I've made very little progress thus far and I'm not yet satisfied with it. Actually, I don't think I have been satisfied since school started. My grades are alright, and I'm still failing the same class which is a problem. I have not completed some of my homework assignments and I suffer during tests. Good thing I have a project for this class and I'll be able to boost my grade if I follow the procedure the right way. I'm praying for a decent grade by the end of this semester. My mom's going to be unhappy about my upcoming progress report. Bleh...I need to shake the stress out and bring in the motivation.
I've been thinking overly too much over the situation and I can't continue to put myself into deeper crap than how it is. I feel such a late bloomer at this point. Time is going so quick, I still have so much to work on, but very little time left. It freaks me out, but I know I have to keep up with the pace without losing track. Everything is stressing me over and over...so frustrating. It does put alot of pressure on my shoulders as I pass by the halls of my school. I remember freshman year it wasn't this. I didn't care enough for the next 3 years of high school simply because I was new to the environment. I wasn't sure what to expect, but as time flew by, things were getting rough. After a series of obstacles and some accomplishments, I've made it to this final year. I don't want to sit and just contemplate on the future. Instead, I want to take action to get to MY future.
I'm still taking things slowly step by step for the time being. One thing I hate the most right now is being rushed and that's not pretty. That's been happening for the past few days. Ugh, it brings me agitation when it happens. I remember a friend told me a former senior I know completed her college applications last minute, and by last minute I mean on the last few days before the deadline. She would rush through everything knowing she wasted all her time. Now I'm not going to stoop that low and put the pressure towards me. I'm still confused on where to go and it's okay. It's not like I have to know which path to take. I don't want to be too late when the time comes. It's half of the semester and this is when things get serious. This isn't the year where I slack off most of my time, yet I get more than decent grades. Things aren't looking great seeing as how my actions have affected my school life. No, I'm not doing anything to hurt myself and such, but the procrastination is the worst habit about myself. And I'm sure everyone else would say the same. I haven't been fully focused due to my lack of attention towards my homework, which I still complete even if I show little effort.
I'm not saying it's the end of the world, but a continuation of where I left off I guess. Every year feels like a new beginning, although I see more as a different chapter to my life and overall. Another huge step is college, and it's not too far away from me at this point. I have yet to tackle the upcoming obstacles standing in my way for the finish line. SAT is next weekend so do wish me luck on that! I admit, I haven't studied and I'm going to do my best at cracking that son of a gun. I might consider taking the SAT II for both english and U.S. history. Well, my knowledge for U.S. history is slightly there, but not enough. I''ll give it all I have by then, unless I decide to go only for Cal States and not UCs. But for now, I'm still hanging in there...hoping for a better outcome for all of this. Maybe all hope hasn't been lost just yet...
WHAT TO DO:
1. COLLEGE FREAKIN` APPLICATIONS.
2. Start on my essay on 'The Odyssey' this weekend. At least 3 paragraphs for a good start.
3. Work on statistics project. I still need some help on it.
4. A head start on reviewing for upcoming economics test.
5. Scholarships! I have a paper with the list of scholarships to apply for. Hizzah!
6. Think of a better excuse to explain to my mom as to why I'm currently failing a class so she won't be so angry at me :P
7. Turn in my senior portrait proofs for yearbook. ASDFGHJKL;
Random thought: A certain someone owes me a late night talk with full updates before I start scolding him for his laziness.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON TRAN <3
FIRST. beat you christopher murdoch. haha
ReplyDeleteGOOD LUCK WITH ALL THAT SCHOOL STUFF!! im sure you'll be fine. :]
you will manage. God never gives anyone anything that they can't handle.
ReplyDeleteWow, seems like you've got quite a load on your hands. But we all know you'll pull through. It's just up to you to decide how it'll all go down. :] I wish you luck! SATs are rough, but once you're done you'll feel a lot better.
ReplyDeleteDon't stress out too much Abby!
i've had senioritis since 9th grade. =\
ReplyDeletenice layout btw~
OMG abby i know exactly what you mean
ReplyDeletei think right now one of my worst fears is not getting everything done on time
and haha the first step is the hardest but once you start,you'll feel a lot better