Happy Halloween/BlogTv

Wow, all I can say is that this day brought out so many good things.

School went alright, despite of the weather. It rained today, which took me by surprise! Wowsers, finally after how many weeks. I guess fall is really hitting in. So yeah, there was a fight that came out of nowhere. A huge crowd came in and I saw this guy having half of his face bleeding. At first I assumed it was fake blood, but it was realistic. I heard some black guy fought with him, who I think is already caught by now. Other than that, people were complimenting my costume, saying I looked cute. I didn't have a hat nor a hook, so I was a unprepared pirate.

Anna and I headed to KYCC for the fall festival. I was in charge of the Bingo/Costume games for middle and elementary school kids with Ginah. She and I had so much fun and that station was the easiest. I know that kids were freaking out over the haunted house and some were excited for the haunted ginger bread house. I didn't stay for long and decided to leave after it was over. My dad informed me that my report card came and my mom was super pissed [I still think she is right now]. She scolded me when she got home from trick-or-treating with my cousins. It also seemed that she was going to hit me, which kind of gave me a blank expression. Asian parents...that's what they do for ya.

I went on BlogTv originally to show my pirate costume to some skype lovelies, but other people whom I was familiar with outside of skype came in. Chris Cendana took me by surprise when he went into my chat. Not to sound like a huge fan [which I'm not] but I truly admire this guy with his talent in singing. Not many people came, but it's okay. I had a great time though and it totally made my night for sure. Thanks guys! <3 Maybe I should go live often on weekends, but at this point I have to try to limit my usage of the internet for statistics. I love how my mom tells me in visaya 'like always, you're failing a subject.' Gotta love that quote...

Anyway, off to bed. SAT in the morning D: Wish me luck! I didn't study for it though :P

HAPPY HALLOWEEN GUYS! I HART YOU ALL.

Maybe all hope hasn't been lost yet...

I realized that these past few days have ultimately been a blur. I've dealt with one emotion to another and it goes into repetition. I didn't understand the reason for it, until I started to go into the core of the problem.

Maybe it's this whole 'senioritis' that's taking over. Heh, well that's just usual for anyone going through the same thing. I haven't started on my college applications nor have I put things into the right place. I've been caught up doing pointless things when what's really in front of me should be my first priority. As time is ticking and deadlines for college applications are nearly a month away, I'm wasting my time by being a sitting duck. I've made very little progress thus far and I'm not yet satisfied with it. Actually, I don't think I have been satisfied since school started. My grades are alright, and I'm still failing the same class which is a problem. I have not completed some of my homework assignments and I suffer during tests. Good thing I have a project for this class and I'll be able to boost my grade if I follow the procedure the right way. I'm praying for a decent grade by the end of this semester. My mom's going to be unhappy about my upcoming progress report. Bleh...I need to shake the stress out and bring in the motivation.

I've been thinking overly too much over the situation and I can't continue to put myself into deeper crap than how it is. I feel such a late bloomer at this point. Time is going so quick, I still have so much to work on, but very little time left. It freaks me out, but I know I have to keep up with the pace without losing track. Everything is stressing me over and over...so frustrating. It does put alot of pressure on my shoulders as I pass by the halls of my school. I remember freshman year it wasn't this. I didn't care enough for the next 3 years of high school simply because I was new to the environment. I wasn't sure what to expect, but as time flew by, things were getting rough. After a series of obstacles and some accomplishments, I've made it to this final year. I don't want to sit and just contemplate on the future. Instead, I want to take action to get to MY future.

I'm still taking things slowly step by step for the time being. One thing I hate the most right now is being rushed and that's not pretty. That's been happening for the past few days. Ugh, it brings me agitation when it happens. I remember a friend told me a former senior I know completed her college applications last minute, and by last minute I mean on the last few days before the deadline. She would rush through everything knowing she wasted all her time. Now I'm not going to stoop that low and put the pressure towards me. I'm still confused on where to go and it's okay. It's not like I have to know which path to take. I don't want to be too late when the time comes. It's half of the semester and this is when things get serious. This isn't the year where I slack off most of my time, yet I get more than decent grades. Things aren't looking great seeing as how my actions have affected my school life. No, I'm not doing anything to hurt myself and such, but the procrastination is the worst habit about myself. And I'm sure everyone else would say the same. I haven't been fully focused due to my lack of attention towards my homework, which I still complete even if I show little effort.

I'm not saying it's the end of the world, but a continuation of where I left off I guess. Every year feels like a new beginning, although I see more as a different chapter to my life and overall. Another huge step is college, and it's not too far away from me at this point. I have yet to tackle the upcoming obstacles standing in my way for the finish line. SAT is next weekend so do wish me luck on that! I admit, I haven't studied and I'm going to do my best at cracking that son of a gun. I might consider taking the SAT II for both english and U.S. history. Well, my knowledge for U.S. history is slightly there, but not enough. I''ll give it all I have by then, unless I decide to go only for Cal States and not UCs. But for now, I'm still hanging in there...hoping for a better outcome for all of this. Maybe all hope hasn't been lost just yet...

WHAT TO DO:

1. COLLEGE FREAKIN` APPLICATIONS.

2. Start on my essay on 'The Odyssey' this weekend. At least 3 paragraphs for a good start.

3. Work on statistics project. I still need some help on it.

4. A head start on reviewing for upcoming economics test.

5. Scholarships! I have a paper with the list of scholarships to apply for. Hizzah!

6. Think of a better excuse to explain to my mom as to why I'm currently failing a class so she won't be so angry at me :P

7. Turn in my senior portrait proofs for yearbook. ASDFGHJKL;

Random thought: A certain someone owes me a late night talk with full updates before I start scolding him for his laziness.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON TRAN <3

Hmm...

A simple smile on my face can mean alot
With a bubbly feeling, I seem to glow whenever
I'm around you. You've given me your full assurance
Your voice shivers me as my heart feels warmer.
You may be far by distance, but being placed in
my heart is enough to get through the day.
You are what I call my pure light.

♥

My Cuppycake.

Yesterday, I went to Palmdale to visit a childhood friend name Jan after a year. His dad's birthday party was held at their home. Oh my, I love their suburban-looking home. It's huge and amazing with a swimming pool in the back. Ah, if only houses like that were to be inexpensive in Los Angeles. That would be suhhWEET. Anyway, Jan's father turned 50 and many of his relatives came over and surprisingly remembered me. "Hey, that's your daughter?! Wow, she has grown up into a lady! Does she still speak visaya?" That's all I heard from majority of those who spoke to my parents. Heh, that's every parent for you.

Not many of my relatives showed up, so I ended up talking to my cousin Nikki. I found out she and I have the same phone, so we took photos in the bathroom for the fun of it. We caught up on some things while we ate food, including pistachio nuts. Lol I automatically think of pistachio ice cream when it comes to that. Those are to die for! Then, she and I played a game of pool upstairs while the kids were playing Brawl. The kids were super hyper last night. I know when I was younger, I used to be like that as well. Just how the kids behaved was a lot more than how my cousin and I used to behave back then.

Jan was too busy doing the cha-cha-cha dance in the backyard with his girlfriend, who is gorgeous. My mom whispered to my ear, saying "Jan got uglier unlike his childhood years. He used to be so cute, but now I wonder what happened to him. He even has a girlfriend who is pretty. That's just strange." Although what she said was messed up, I find it hilarious. Jan and I didn't talk much during the party. He was too busy with his thing while I walked around with my cousin. It was great seeing him though. It is true that he and I are more nicer to each other while talking on the phone. I think in person, I just like to mess around with him. That's what happens when I haven't seen this punk for a year. He hit me and I kicked him. So whatever he does, I would make a comeback that's twice as hard :D Btw, I used to like this guy a few years ago. He never knew about it, but if I were to tell him now, he'd probably laugh in my face -__-

The other day, I ended up not going to the fall festival meeting at YDAPP. I didn't feel too good so I walked straight home after school. My parents asked if I wanted to come along with them to the mall and I agreed. We went to West Pavillion mall and shopped around for a good two hours. I bought my own clothes with my summer job money while my parents bought their own. Dang, I didn't finish shopping though, but it's alright. If it were to be a habit, all my summer job money would be gone by now. Then we went to Target where I bumped into my aunt, uncle & my two cousins. I bought a mocha frap from Starbucks where the co-workers were funny. We kind of had a short conversation, which was cool. I went towards the book section and read the first few pages of the Twilight series. I'm thinking of buying all four books now. Heh, wouldn't hurt to give it a try considering that I'm no fan of reading any books unless it's quite interesting.

On the same night, I couldn't sleep. My mind was somewhere else for some reason. I felt a bit crushed inside as I tried distracting myself from it. It was no use and I sat there feeling so gloomy. I ended up sleeping at 4 am and woke up four hours later. I had no rest until that car ride to Palmdale. Eh, I have to fix my sleeping pattern tonight. I feel so exhausted and I can't seem to think straight sometimes. But I hate it when there are some nights where I feel so down out of nowhere. Maybe it's the stress and such, but I can't sleep on it and expect it to be gone so quickly. Meh, I really do hope it goes away soon.

Oh yeah, happy birthday J! <3

People

Guess game, anyone? :D I'm going to edit the rest later so relax!

1. I love our ongoing conversations that can either come out humorous [with our inside jokes] or interesting depending on the topic. Oh, and I love how you call me 'a bagel' ;D

2. You say 'I love you' way too much, but it shows how caring and lovely you are. So, I love you too! <3
3. I enjoy our talks ever since I first spoke to you and I'm sure you'll make it to the college of your choice my dear. Keep aiming high! COME down to California again :]

4. Oh my lawd, I miss your presence. School's the only thing separating us, but it's okay. When you go to homecoming, make sure you take photos!

5. I'm grateful to have someone like you who's caring. You still sometimes ask me to call you when I really can't. There's always skype!

6. You put your favorite animal as a last thing on your blogs. I find that funny, but cool.

7. Thank you for listening to my problems, as well as giving me tips to write my first English essay of this semester. You are a hero!

8. I can PWN you at badminton anytime and any day my friend. Be prepared.

9. I love your suspenseful blogs. Always entertaining no matter how short they are.

10. I should have lip sync your favorite song for your birthday video, but maybe next time ;]

11. You are really pretty and awesome to talk to, even though I haven't quite talked to you as much as everyone else. Save me a discount at your work, eh? teehee.

12. Although you and I don't speak to each other as much on AIM unlike summer, we still manage to communicate through blogs. I always come out laughing after I watch your latest videos.

Ten Things I Dislike.

1. I dislike the fact that my internet keeps disconnecting even if I have signal.
2. I dislike how people mistreat you after how many times you've been there for them.
3. I dislike people who can't keep their word as they say they do. [Seriously, don't make promises if you know you can't keep them.]
4. I dislike [or HATE] the ongoing smoke whenever I'm around people who smoke. LET OTHERS BREATHE the air than to suffer, thank you.
5. I dislike the fact that people brag about something you wanted and constantly shove it in your face.
6. I dislike people with B.O. Learn to shower better! D:
7. I dislike songs that involve degrading women and excessive profanity. That's purely garbage, not real music.
8. I dislike [or more of hate] liars who can't be 100% honest with you most of the time.
9. I dislike people who expect you to do majority of the work when you have something else to do.
10. I mostly dislike the hatred people have amongst others. Can't we all just get along for once?

Fact: Since I'm a lefty, my typing technique is strange. From my right hand, I use only the thumb and index finger while I use all of my left fingers. So the last three are rarely used.

My day was...

It wasn't as bad as I thought until towards the end of the day. I'll start with the morning.

So today was PSAT testing for 10th and 11 graders while freshmen and seniors had their own activities for the first 3 hours before lunch. Seniors had an hour of meeting regarding finances while freshmen had some sort of a ice breaker activity where some seniors facilitated. After that, seniors went to the football field to set up for the class of '09 panorama picture. It took almost an hour to get everyone settled. Some guy kept messing up the photo, so we had to go through some retakes. It was freakin` annoying and some guy from the balcony mooned at us. Seriously, I didn't see it but I was told it happened. No wonder why people were like 'WHAT THE HECK?' During panorama, the weather was horrible. I didn't expect it to be that hot and I wore a sweater. Wow, the climate's been dreadful lately.

Then it was lunch and Anna and I chit chatted over some gossip going around and interesting news. We all headed to our classes, which lasted for 27 minutes. Majority of our time, we pretty much had a free day. No work distributed and all. I had a guest speaker for economics regarding Art Institute. I'm sort of interested, but I'm not fully sure to apply to that school. Oh yeah, my dad is willing to pay for all my college applications, even though I'm not qualified for a fee waiver which sucks. Oh well, I have to get through it somehow. I've decided on around 8-9 schools to apply so far.

After school, Anna and I headed to the YDAPP meeting and waited more than an hour for it to start. She and I chilled at KYCC and I spoke to Joyce over some things. Then the meeting started and we all went through ice breaker games as usual. Most of them were actually fun and I enjoyed it. We then were broken up into our committees. John, the chair in our group was frustrated over some possible events going to occur during our festival. A lady from a different youth community group was giving us suggestions on how to set up things on the day of the event. Honestly, it gave us a headache and I can tell John was stressing out. So we're returning to KYCC this friday to finalize our plans and get things started. I have a few work meetings to attend before the day of the fall festival. Great, I'm going to come home late again. I've put myself into this, and I agreed to be fully committed anyway.

Quick recap: Homecoming weekend was great. I went to Oxnard and attended the homecoming dance at Pacifica High School. I had the whole day to prep for the event and I was all over places. Got my make up & hair done while doing some last minute touches. My best friend and I went over to her friend's place to wait for the guys. As soon as they arrived, we were stunned. They were handsome with their look and all. My date got me a corsage which was so amazing and cute! We took our group photos, couple photos and headed to Pacifica for a photoshoot. After that, we went to a japanese restaurant. The food was to die for! We had this dish known as the sumo boat. It consists of different varieties of food like tempura, teriyaki chicken, etc. It was delicioso along with some sushi and tempura ice cream. I want to dine in that place again! At the dance, I saw way too many freak dancing, but I wasn't part of any. So yes, I'm not really that type :P The DJ was boring and some parts of the dance was bleh. In the end, things were brightening up a bit. Then my date along with the gang dropped me off home while they headed to some pier in Ventura where hookers were around. I love them to death, and I mean my gang and not the hookers.

My secret: I'm tired of being the one who tries to make conversation when the other doesn't seem to give effort to do the same.

The end.

Ten New Things

1.I went to school and it was usual.

2.I'm failing AP stats and I'm being one hell of a lazyass.

3.I'm going to stop with the profanity for now on.

4. Homecoming photos are posted on facebook :]

5. YDAPP meeting tomorrow along with senior panorama picture day.

6. Palmdale this weekend for a party.

7. New surprise finally made. HAR HAR.

8. I've finally approved my best friend with her boyfriend after almost two years. Sadly...

9. Darrell and I have the same birthday, but different year. AWESOME.

10. My secret: I sometimes wish I can tell you what's really behind the words I say...maybe one day.

Goodnight.

Thoughts Need to be Expressed

No need to comment. Just something I need to release before I sleep.

There's this wall between us that I'm trying my hardest to tear down. My hands get cold as my heart feels heavy. I feel things are slowly fading like the things we used to do. Not long ago, you comforted me when my own mother put me down for a certain incident. I enjoy our all night talks and the ongoing insults I would give you in exchange for compliments. I love how you easily make me smile for the littlest things you say or do. Makes me feel that I can confide to you for anything at anytime.

Nowadays, after how things are with my life, I'm slowly fading away. Even if I still talk to you, I know it's not as enough as it was. Maybe I'm a bit over ahead, but I miss your ongoing presence. I've always enjoyed your company since the first time I discovered you. Everything about you somehow made me drawn to you in terms of our conversations. I wish we had those kind of talks that are longer than how it is. You say I can always go to you anytime, but for some reason I'm staying back. I'm probably afraid to open myself a bit to you knowing that I haven't expressed any emotions thus far but here.

I feel a bit bummed as I'm writing this, but I guess it's me who's feeling this way. I don't want to be in the way or anything. I'm sorry I haven't been carrying our daily conversations and I'm hoping we can get all the time we've wasted back. Things just keep appearing that keep me away. If anything, I'd like to make all of it up to you. It seems as though I've known you longer than I thought. I don't care if it's been a short while, but every moment whether if it's not in person means something more to me. I don't know if you see it that way as I do but that's how it's been. I do consider you important and always will be.

But for now, I'm going to let this pass and hoping for a better day. I just can't go on like this right now. Goodnight...

There Are Some Things...

Don't you hate it when you're at a point in your life where everything is finally falling into place, and a small thing just seems to ruin it? I really hate it with a passion. I know life throws things out in the way unexpectedly, but just going through this kills. I wish things wouldn't be this difficult. Too bad we all have to get through it somehow.

I still have yet to feel that things are starting to go my way. I mean nothing can go your way as always. But I just wish things would work out for once without any doubt that it wouldn't. What kills is when people get in the way. You just want to strangle them and push them in the flames of fire for that. Well not really, but you'd be furious right? I hate distractions especially when people don't realize they're the cause of it. I'm not saying any of you guys are but certain people in school or elsewhere don't seem to understand where their limits lie. It's not like people in my school life will stay in mine forever anyway since we'll be graduating in less than a year.

So many choices to make, so little time. Yeah and I'm talking about what I want to do with my life. I still don't know and even if I knew, I probably would be doubtful about it because I'm constantly changing my mind to see a different outcome of it. I hate being so indecisive because it throws me off track. If I want more than one thing even if I'm suppose to pick just one, it's harder to decide. I can never stick to one thing I'm passionate about. There's so much out there to experience, yet I can't do all at the same time. I'm impressed that people have their own passion whether if it's performing arts, major in biomedical engineering, or even become a doctor. That shows you're that determine to stick to one thing rather than what's offered. I know that in due time, I'll finally realize what my real passion is. If only I thought of this when I was younger, then I wouldn't have an issue to deal with it now. Then again, people go through the same thing. If I had to, I would go back in time and plan everything out, Making sure things go smoothly well and even if there were issues, I would try to fix it as much as I can. It bothers me that I think of this last minute and I have a small amount of time for it. Well it feels like that anyway.

I've realized I'm not as close to God as my family are. Maybe I'm losing my interest into God because I don't put enough effort to make him a part of my life or maybe I question his existence. Don't get me wrong, I'm always curious about everything, but when it comes to God and all, I'm just unsure. Being a Catholic throughout my whole life has made me feel that I haven't really indulged myself in being religious. I'm always bored when it comes to attending mass or doing the rosary. Even I stopped praying at night because of it. I already have my communion and my confirmation, but does that really make me feel like a true Catholic? I feel that God's probably disappointed in me of the things I've done, especially this. I've always wondered if he's really looking after me and seeing my flaws. It's like he has me all figured out and I feel there's no way to redeem myself. That's why I want to start over and try giving him a chance to be in my life again. I've felt like this for so long that I can't keep going without realizing that God will always be a huge impact in my life. I guess I'm in that phase where I'm unsure on what to really believe. In a way, I've been agnostic due to my lack of attention to God or questioning the faith. It feels so weird to even talk about this because I haven't exactly said this to anyone at all. I just feel so guilty for some reason.

I'm going to edit tomorrow. I'm exhausted and it's getting late.

Not So Exciting Fiesta

Ahh the Dumanjug Fiesta. Usually I would be a bit excited for this event which comes once a year around early October. Oh and Dumanjug is a small town in Cebu City where most of my relatives are from. It's more of a reunion with any relatives/friends who attend. The thing with this year is that, I was literally bored out of my mind :/

I arrived sometime around early 6 p.m. and saw everyone there [or at least most]. One of my cousins asked to come with her to her place to pick up community service hour forms. Two of my cousins tagged along and so we drove. My cousin was kind of speeding to avoid rush hour traffic. I was a little nervous because some cars were cutting in front of us and her car nearly hit the rear of someone's car -_- We arrived to her place and chilled for a bit. She couldn't find some of the forms because her mom probably misplaced it. So the remaining ones she found were all she had. Then we decided to get boba nearby her house. I haven't had boba for the longest. I had white chocolate mocha which is quite yummy. While going back to the fiesta, we missed the exit! None of us had any idea so we were worried we'd get lost. So I told my cousin to go to the next exit and try to find out way back. Fortunately we somehow remember where to go from there. Woot! Her mom kept calling us saying we're late for mass [which btw we missed majority of it after reaching the part where they say peace be with you].

Once mass was over, everyone was in line for the food. I didn't want to waste my time waiting in that long line so I chilled with two of my cousins in the parking lot having deep conversations. Some of our cousins were looking for us and we ducked as they were passing by. Our talk lasted for probably about 25 minutes. Then we decided to go back and see what was going on at the party. I met some of my cousin's friends who were so shy -.- I tried talking to them and they just stand there looking like lost souls.

My relatives had a raffle with different prizes which were given by people. Some kid won a rice cooker [how asian is that] while my nephew won $50. I would've snatched it and run, but that would be too messed up as his aunt. LOL! I remember a girl won an iPod shuffle though. I was told they were going to give an iPhone...bunch of liars. I would have been happier if it were to be the new iPod nano. Oh yeah, I ended up not purchasing it yesterday. The mall was closed :/ Maybe today or tomorrow I'll be able to get it.

Everyone was dancing to disco and some of the modern songs we hear today. Most of my cousins and I just sat around suffering from the boredom. I played slapjack with some of them to keep the bored away. It was probably the only highlight of the night because we bursted into laughter as we were playing. I wish we would see each other often.

I called Jana and talked to her for a good 15 minutes before I lost signal. I was waiting to go home early so I can catch up with my youstreamskypians online. Two of my cousins left earlier than I thought and the remaining people were just talking. My cousin James and I came up with a plan to do some sort of a 'scandalous' photo with his sister and one of my cousin's friends. We tried taking a clear photo of them together but our attempts failed until towards the end when one of my cousins asked them if she can take a photo. Wow, that was just way too simple there. Anyway, the photo was so cute and James tried sending it to a friend. Unfortunately, it didn't work when we tried sending it through my phone. So I have to upload the photo with my USB cord and send it to him. James was frustrated that his sister wouldn't speak to the guy next to her. We were like GO IN FOR THE KILL! D: Geez...then somehow they made progress. Ahahah! It didn't quite last long which was a bummer. Yes I know, we're such r-tards.

People commented about my hair asking if I had a haircut. I guess they forgot my last haircut was about two months ago. The only difference with my hair was that it was so straight. Maybe that was why, but yeah. People were still dancing until around midnight when everyone was leaving one by one. I was like HALLELUJAH! It sucks that I won't be able to see my cousins for a while from now.

I got home and hopped on AIM to talk to Jana most of the time. Then I texted Jeff since he was still online and asked for a call. So we ended up talking late again which is always fun. He plans to go to California soon and said I should visit New York one day. If only I had enough money by then, maybe I will. We'll just have to wait and see. I slept around 5 a.m. and also the night before. I woke up around 10 a.m. when my parents were having an argument. Seriously, what a great way to start my morning with that. I hate being here sometimes.

Whatever.

Oh I love this song even though the scene where it occurred from The Last of the Mohicans was depressing. Any of you seen that movie? If not, watch it :D It's good, well in my opinion.

So it's Friday and I'm home blogging. Awesome right? Hah not really. I'm not sure if my parents and I along with my little cousin are going to watch that new chihuahua movie tonight. My dad's playing basketball with his buds and we may have to watch the movie around 9 p.m. That means I might get the new iPod nano later this weekend instead. Oh yeah, I'm getting the product red as a support to fight HIV/AIDS in Africa.

I have a load of statistics homework to do. It's crazy and the teacher added new work today. What the hell?! I have to be out this weekend while dealing with this. Bleh, I'll just ask two of my friends for a study session we talked about today. I need to prep for the chapter test. I think I did pretty good on my econ and english test. It wasn't that hard as I thought. I asked my econ teacher after school to go over the answers. I only miss 3 which isn't bad, but that gives me a B on the test. Eh, whatever but at least I passed :D As for english, there were only 46 questions and I think I missed about two of the questions, especially the last one. It was regarding the two aspects of the homeric simile which slipped my mind.

Aside from the tests, I have a new project for econ. Thanks to certain people for being BIG MOUTHS, it's now due next Wednesday. The next two periods have theirs due either next Friday or Monday of the week after next week. The teacher took off two days because of the amount of interruption he got from these bastards. I really just want to go up to them and verbally abuse the life out of them. Whoa, that was a bit too much but I'm agitated to the extent. It sucks that they're in my period though. So now we have only 5 days to complete the project. Good thing it's a group project too. I like the people in my group since they always do their work and what not.

I'm unsure whether or not I can go to homecoming next weekend at Nicole's school. I have to think of the day when to purchase the dress and a few things are getting in the way. So I'm going to have to think of an alternative way to get around it. I hope it all works out for the best. Looks like it's a 50/50 for this one.

I should get started with studying for the SAT next month. I didn't study for the last one, which I bombed. My score was horribly low, I can't even say it. So don't bother asking if you're that curious guys. I only told about two people, including my econ teacher. I forgot to mention that I got my progress report. Lol I thought my mom would get the hold of it, but she wasn't home and so was everyone else. So I snatched it and hid it somewhere :D My grades are alright, except that D in stats. I don't want to deal with my mom bitching over one grade. She makes it seem like I'm such a huge failure to her. Well most Filipino parents or Asian parents are the same, so go figure. I'll bring up that grade somehow. Promise.

I'm so content it's the weekend. I can relax and enjoy while getting some work done. I hope I can get those late night talks again...eh I guess we'll see. I enjoy having those simply because it's something I always look forward to.

Okay this blog wasn't so interesting. Sorry that I failed.

October!

I've been swamped with so many work to be done lately. It's really a hassle to get it completed and expect a good grade from each of the work given. I'm getting much more exhausted and yet I refuse to take short naps. Talk about crazy there. So I'm still alive guys! Woot random.

It's been surprisingly hot and it's suppose to be fall. I mean wow it's October and the weather is getting worse and worse by the minute. I slept with the AC on for a while and as I get out from my room, the cold is suddenly fading. I even wore a sweater to school for the past two days! I'm just getting weirder and weirder. So my mom told me to wear a shirt instead of a sweater, which worked but I sweated throughout the day :/ How disgusting.

This week has been nothing but more classwork/homework along with tests to take. My statistics test is postponed for Monday [hallelujah!]. I need more time to study and finish my disastrous homework because I'm falling behind. Stupid me...and I have economics and a test for book 6 & 7 for the odyssey. 50 questions this time and I have to prep for it before then. Oh the joy for studying :P

So I got asked out to homecoming at Nicole's school by her guy best friend Edgar. He's really sweet and a great person. He planned on singing to me, but felt too shy and decided to call me via phone. This is my first time going to attend someone's homecoming dance with a date. LOL! I rarely go to any of my dances at school and it's senior year so what the heck. Might as well give it a go. I have yet to ask my parents and I hope they'll let me attend. I just won't mention the part where I'm going with a guy. I know my mom's going to assume and ask 'is he your boyfriend?!' I found my dress online thanks to Melissa for searching it on google. The store is at Burbank which is not far from LA. I am stoked for this! Nicole kind of has it all planned out. So I hope to get this out of the way. Oh by the way, stop asking me for the link of the dress of my choice [specifically to Jeremy, Ralphie, Oliver, Kyle and whoever]. I don't want to spoil the surprise even if you want me to have a male's opinion. So there! Lmao!

College applications are here! I'll get started on my CSU and maybe my UC applications by this or next week. Should I apply for out of state too? Hmm...I already signed up for the November SAT even though I should've applied for this saturday's SAT at my school. How lame! Good luck to those who are going to take it this weekend! I really need to study though. Blehh.

This fiesta I'm soon to attend is this weekend as well. Ahh I'm not sure if everyone is going because some have plans while certain ones don't even want to go, period. I'm only going because I skipped all prayer gatherings for school :/ Okay some I didn't want to go due to my laziness. I'm such a horrible person ]: I hope to enjoy it with everyone whom I haven't seen for the longest. I might meet Jayther, but I doubt it this time if I were to get my dress on that day. GAHHH.

Anna and I missed our stop to the YDAPP meeting because we were about two or three blocks away and did not notice we passed by. So we had to walk back down which took half an hour [and came late to the meeting :x]. Joyce saw us walking to the meeting and Ernie texted saying 'RUN!!!' Har har har -__- We had a talk regarding on who will be faciliating each meeting and who'll take notes. I chose to facilitate around January 2009. Teehee. I know people are going to choose a date that's probably two months from now. Lol! People are too shy to facilitate in the upcoming weeks. We are too funnay.

I had a long talk with Cinday on the phone just earlier. She's so awesome! I enjoy making conversations with her and plus we have mobile to mobile minutes. WOOT! <3 & Jeff, We need to talk more :/ blehhh. I miss it...

I know my blogs have lately been a bit emotional, but I guess things just seem to drag my spirits down. I'm just going to keep things stable for the time being. So no worries guys. I just need to get my mind into gear.