I've been waiting for this weekend since ever and now that it's ending, I must say...I did something productive for once. HAH well I mean starting my homework a bit earlier than expected. I still haven't started on my AP Stats homework. Melissa won't be coming over due to her illness. Hopefully, we'll get started tomorrow.
For the past two days, I've been staying up pretty late. The latest has been around 5 a.m. I blame Jeff for that. HAH kidding. He and I had a very interesting conversation, talking about relationships and such. I was wide awake too, which is strange because usually I just fall asleep quickly. He's definitely someone I can always confide with. WEEE! <3
Lately, I've been working on my essay for Ogden and I'm nearly done. I wonder if everyone from class started or finished. I know people have complained since it's the first week and all. I enjoy writing essays depending on the topic itself. If the topic does not interest me, then I'm going to be stuck with boredom as I try brainstorming, knowing that I'm probably going to procrastinate. Please guys, procrastinating is a huge NO-NO. I'm trying to break free from this disease :x
I wish weekends are longer. I need one more day to relax at least. Bleh, two days aren't enough. Imagine if Monday counts as a weekend, that would be thrilling. If there was a holiday, then it may be 4 days. I wish it would work that way though. Kind of feels like I got out of school just yesterday too. How weird. Oh how I do miss summer even if it wasn't all that great. I have to wait until December to get off track for two months. Which reminds me, I need to make up some classes for a higher grade. BLAH. My mom thinks I'm always failing all the time. You know how parents compare you to their friend's kids or even your own cousins/siblings to see who achieved best? Yeah, she's one of those parents. I mean who hasn't done that? I've been compared to multiple times, and I don't really care. It puts me in an awkward moment because as I'm listening to my mom blabber about how my performance in school is in general, I really don't have a say to it. I know parents do so just to make you work harder than you ever have, but that doesn't mean they can put their kids down with their mistakes. It's agitating to me.
I had a very strange dream where I find out that I'm pregnant. I was wondering who the father would be, but he wasn't around. Then a scene from that show Gilmore Girls came to place and I felt excited that I met Alexis Bledel for the first day. I forgot what else happened, but I remember experiencing contractions in my stomach. Weird...Now I'm thinking twice on having kids in the future just because of it. LOL. Why can't men go through our pain too? They should experience on what it's like to be in our shoes than to ridicule how us girls go through periods, pregnancy, menopause, PMSing. So if we go through periods, then men go through commas? HAHAH no...okay that wasn't funny. -_- [shut up] :P
My cousin and I had a discussion regarding Politics. I'm no fan of that subject. I can talk about anything, except the election. It's probably going to turn ugly to me when it comes down to a simple debate over who should win of this year's presidential election. To those who enjoy talking about this or anything that relates to Politics, might as well be a politican. My friend Hector used to lecture me about America with the gas prices, global warming, recession and etc. His lectures would be 20 minutes without interrupting him. HAH but all of it has made me think. I can use a lecture like that again and perhaps right now for my essay. I think that's about it for today. I'll probably talk to Jeff again and poke fun as usual. Teehee.
Edit: I made a poem out of boredom to keep my mind running from going through writer's block. By the way, don't laugh. I haven't wrote poems for the longest. Boo...
They say love is beautiful, yet it's pain
I've never experienced it, nor has it made my heart drain
I stand on my own two feet without someone to love
I lay on my rooftop and daze at the stars above
A shooting star came by, could it be?
So I wished upon it, saying "I wish someone would love me"
"Love me for who I am and not what you want me to become"
Oh how I yearn for that person, I hope he'll one day come
Fairy tale stories are anyone's favorite,
but we know that reality is the opposite
Everyone deserves someone, but the question is when?
I look at the time, the clock strikes at ten
Time moves very slow, we're tempted to know what's ahead
Patience is a virtue, so I'd rather wait instead
The one fear I can't stand for now is the fear of being alone
Have my heart stop beating, turn it into stone
I wouldn't know what to do if that were to occur
Everything would be unseen, or maybe a blur
Can someone keep my heart beating
And maybe stay this time without leaving?
For the past two days, I've been staying up pretty late. The latest has been around 5 a.m. I blame Jeff for that. HAH kidding. He and I had a very interesting conversation, talking about relationships and such. I was wide awake too, which is strange because usually I just fall asleep quickly. He's definitely someone I can always confide with. WEEE! <3
Lately, I've been working on my essay for Ogden and I'm nearly done. I wonder if everyone from class started or finished. I know people have complained since it's the first week and all. I enjoy writing essays depending on the topic itself. If the topic does not interest me, then I'm going to be stuck with boredom as I try brainstorming, knowing that I'm probably going to procrastinate. Please guys, procrastinating is a huge NO-NO. I'm trying to break free from this disease :x
I wish weekends are longer. I need one more day to relax at least. Bleh, two days aren't enough. Imagine if Monday counts as a weekend, that would be thrilling. If there was a holiday, then it may be 4 days. I wish it would work that way though. Kind of feels like I got out of school just yesterday too. How weird. Oh how I do miss summer even if it wasn't all that great. I have to wait until December to get off track for two months. Which reminds me, I need to make up some classes for a higher grade. BLAH. My mom thinks I'm always failing all the time. You know how parents compare you to their friend's kids or even your own cousins/siblings to see who achieved best? Yeah, she's one of those parents. I mean who hasn't done that? I've been compared to multiple times, and I don't really care. It puts me in an awkward moment because as I'm listening to my mom blabber about how my performance in school is in general, I really don't have a say to it. I know parents do so just to make you work harder than you ever have, but that doesn't mean they can put their kids down with their mistakes. It's agitating to me.
I had a very strange dream where I find out that I'm pregnant. I was wondering who the father would be, but he wasn't around. Then a scene from that show Gilmore Girls came to place and I felt excited that I met Alexis Bledel for the first day. I forgot what else happened, but I remember experiencing contractions in my stomach. Weird...Now I'm thinking twice on having kids in the future just because of it. LOL. Why can't men go through our pain too? They should experience on what it's like to be in our shoes than to ridicule how us girls go through periods, pregnancy, menopause, PMSing. So if we go through periods, then men go through commas? HAHAH no...okay that wasn't funny. -_- [shut up] :P
My cousin and I had a discussion regarding Politics. I'm no fan of that subject. I can talk about anything, except the election. It's probably going to turn ugly to me when it comes down to a simple debate over who should win of this year's presidential election. To those who enjoy talking about this or anything that relates to Politics, might as well be a politican. My friend Hector used to lecture me about America with the gas prices, global warming, recession and etc. His lectures would be 20 minutes without interrupting him. HAH but all of it has made me think. I can use a lecture like that again and perhaps right now for my essay. I think that's about it for today. I'll probably talk to Jeff again and poke fun as usual. Teehee.
Edit: I made a poem out of boredom to keep my mind running from going through writer's block. By the way, don't laugh. I haven't wrote poems for the longest. Boo...
They say love is beautiful, yet it's pain
I've never experienced it, nor has it made my heart drain
I stand on my own two feet without someone to love
I lay on my rooftop and daze at the stars above
A shooting star came by, could it be?
So I wished upon it, saying "I wish someone would love me"
"Love me for who I am and not what you want me to become"
Oh how I yearn for that person, I hope he'll one day come
Fairy tale stories are anyone's favorite,
but we know that reality is the opposite
Everyone deserves someone, but the question is when?
I look at the time, the clock strikes at ten
Time moves very slow, we're tempted to know what's ahead
Patience is a virtue, so I'd rather wait instead
The one fear I can't stand for now is the fear of being alone
Have my heart stop beating, turn it into stone
I wouldn't know what to do if that were to occur
Everything would be unseen, or maybe a blur
Can someone keep my heart beating
And maybe stay this time without leaving?
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
ReplyDeleteI'm telling you jayther i mean abby. I see something's going on or going to happen! x]
Two words: Asian. Parents.
ReplyDeleteThey'll compare you to other people to either compliment others or encourage you (yeah, nice huh?). They can always find something to nit pick about, so don't let it get to you too much Abby. <3
Wouldn't it be interesting if guys could go through everything a girls have to for a day?
Lovely poem. I feel the same way.
what are you talking about: periods, pregnancy, we have all that us guys, it's just that we're keeping it a secret (shhhh)
ReplyDeleteLike I said yesterday, nice poem.