Random Venting.

To love someone, that kind of feeling doesn't come often. Sometimes, people confuse love with infatuation. Not everyone can tell how love is like or what it is. Other times, love can be meaningless because I believe people are afraid to step forward and taking risks, even if it means that your heart could be on the line for rejection. I can't say that I have fully experienced love yet. I have gone through past relationships, which weren't so great. At least, I had the experience to know that I once had someone who felt the same way towards me as I did for them. Why am I all of a sudden talking about this? You can say something made me realize that love is such a beautiful thing to have. I'm so envious when it comes to seeing couples around me. or watching those Asian dramas that have that whole fairy tale scene. It's not that I want that kind of love to come already, but the thought of having someone who truly loves you for the person you are can give you the best feeling in the whole world. I wish guys these days would be like the ones from those Asian dramas I've seen. I think any girl would want that kind of fantasy as well. Everyone deserves a somebody after all, well in my opinion.

Experiencing love is one thing, but going through rejection is another. You can never hope too much to keep everything the same with you and the person you say you're in love with. I think change can be both ways depending on what. Everyone hates to have themselves be rejected from the person they hope to have. It's not the best feeling to have because it brings you pain. That kind of pain can lead to things you don't want to deal, but over time...it may eventually disappear. There are others who want to end up being alone because they feel there's no one who can make their life complete. You really don't need that certain someone to be happy, but to be content of what you do have. It's not wrong to be on your own, yet again...you don't want to miss out on the best things life can ever give you. Going through rejection can make people go insane, and possibly do things they regret to do. I mean, I don't blame anyone who is going through that right now, but it's best if they continue to move forward and hope for the near future. It's never the end of the world, but a beginning I suppose. I remember having myself rejected from past guys, only because they felt that I was more of a friend to them. I've had some guys whose feelings for me disappeared overtime either because someone else came into their life or felt it was meaningless. I hate to say this, but I really just wanted to hate them for that. I'm sure anyone would feel the same as I did. We all want a somebody with a pure personality and hopefully create a life with one day. It only takes a matter of time to find out who it is you'd like to spend the rest of your life with. That's why, I'm not giving up and wait around for that to happen one day. I'm happy of where I am, even if I have some things bothering me, but it's alright.

What I do wish is at least...that one person to accept myself for the person I was born to be. I'm tired of believing one's own words about me, and in the end...it absolutely means nothing to him. I feel foolish to say this, but this isn't the first I've went through. I guess it takes a whole lot for one person to see the beauty of my heart. Whatever my heart feels, it'll stay the same no matter how long it has been. I don't call it love because I don't see it as love just yet. It doesn't seem as though this kind of thing bothers me, but it does here and there. All I'm doing is being the best I am and whoever reads this, I'm sure things will go smoothly, with or without that person. I will one day understand the real meaning of love, but this is just...my way of how I see it.

I only wish that my heart can finally be accepted for once...