Happy Halloween/BlogTv

Wow, all I can say is that this day brought out so many good things.

School went alright, despite of the weather. It rained today, which took me by surprise! Wowsers, finally after how many weeks. I guess fall is really hitting in. So yeah, there was a fight that came out of nowhere. A huge crowd came in and I saw this guy having half of his face bleeding. At first I assumed it was fake blood, but it was realistic. I heard some black guy fought with him, who I think is already caught by now. Other than that, people were complimenting my costume, saying I looked cute. I didn't have a hat nor a hook, so I was a unprepared pirate.

Anna and I headed to KYCC for the fall festival. I was in charge of the Bingo/Costume games for middle and elementary school kids with Ginah. She and I had so much fun and that station was the easiest. I know that kids were freaking out over the haunted house and some were excited for the haunted ginger bread house. I didn't stay for long and decided to leave after it was over. My dad informed me that my report card came and my mom was super pissed [I still think she is right now]. She scolded me when she got home from trick-or-treating with my cousins. It also seemed that she was going to hit me, which kind of gave me a blank expression. Asian parents...that's what they do for ya.

I went on BlogTv originally to show my pirate costume to some skype lovelies, but other people whom I was familiar with outside of skype came in. Chris Cendana took me by surprise when he went into my chat. Not to sound like a huge fan [which I'm not] but I truly admire this guy with his talent in singing. Not many people came, but it's okay. I had a great time though and it totally made my night for sure. Thanks guys! <3 Maybe I should go live often on weekends, but at this point I have to try to limit my usage of the internet for statistics. I love how my mom tells me in visaya 'like always, you're failing a subject.' Gotta love that quote...

Anyway, off to bed. SAT in the morning D: Wish me luck! I didn't study for it though :P

HAPPY HALLOWEEN GUYS! I HART YOU ALL.

Maybe all hope hasn't been lost yet...

I realized that these past few days have ultimately been a blur. I've dealt with one emotion to another and it goes into repetition. I didn't understand the reason for it, until I started to go into the core of the problem.

Maybe it's this whole 'senioritis' that's taking over. Heh, well that's just usual for anyone going through the same thing. I haven't started on my college applications nor have I put things into the right place. I've been caught up doing pointless things when what's really in front of me should be my first priority. As time is ticking and deadlines for college applications are nearly a month away, I'm wasting my time by being a sitting duck. I've made very little progress thus far and I'm not yet satisfied with it. Actually, I don't think I have been satisfied since school started. My grades are alright, and I'm still failing the same class which is a problem. I have not completed some of my homework assignments and I suffer during tests. Good thing I have a project for this class and I'll be able to boost my grade if I follow the procedure the right way. I'm praying for a decent grade by the end of this semester. My mom's going to be unhappy about my upcoming progress report. Bleh...I need to shake the stress out and bring in the motivation.

I've been thinking overly too much over the situation and I can't continue to put myself into deeper crap than how it is. I feel such a late bloomer at this point. Time is going so quick, I still have so much to work on, but very little time left. It freaks me out, but I know I have to keep up with the pace without losing track. Everything is stressing me over and over...so frustrating. It does put alot of pressure on my shoulders as I pass by the halls of my school. I remember freshman year it wasn't this. I didn't care enough for the next 3 years of high school simply because I was new to the environment. I wasn't sure what to expect, but as time flew by, things were getting rough. After a series of obstacles and some accomplishments, I've made it to this final year. I don't want to sit and just contemplate on the future. Instead, I want to take action to get to MY future.

I'm still taking things slowly step by step for the time being. One thing I hate the most right now is being rushed and that's not pretty. That's been happening for the past few days. Ugh, it brings me agitation when it happens. I remember a friend told me a former senior I know completed her college applications last minute, and by last minute I mean on the last few days before the deadline. She would rush through everything knowing she wasted all her time. Now I'm not going to stoop that low and put the pressure towards me. I'm still confused on where to go and it's okay. It's not like I have to know which path to take. I don't want to be too late when the time comes. It's half of the semester and this is when things get serious. This isn't the year where I slack off most of my time, yet I get more than decent grades. Things aren't looking great seeing as how my actions have affected my school life. No, I'm not doing anything to hurt myself and such, but the procrastination is the worst habit about myself. And I'm sure everyone else would say the same. I haven't been fully focused due to my lack of attention towards my homework, which I still complete even if I show little effort.

I'm not saying it's the end of the world, but a continuation of where I left off I guess. Every year feels like a new beginning, although I see more as a different chapter to my life and overall. Another huge step is college, and it's not too far away from me at this point. I have yet to tackle the upcoming obstacles standing in my way for the finish line. SAT is next weekend so do wish me luck on that! I admit, I haven't studied and I'm going to do my best at cracking that son of a gun. I might consider taking the SAT II for both english and U.S. history. Well, my knowledge for U.S. history is slightly there, but not enough. I''ll give it all I have by then, unless I decide to go only for Cal States and not UCs. But for now, I'm still hanging in there...hoping for a better outcome for all of this. Maybe all hope hasn't been lost just yet...

WHAT TO DO:

1. COLLEGE FREAKIN` APPLICATIONS.

2. Start on my essay on 'The Odyssey' this weekend. At least 3 paragraphs for a good start.

3. Work on statistics project. I still need some help on it.

4. A head start on reviewing for upcoming economics test.

5. Scholarships! I have a paper with the list of scholarships to apply for. Hizzah!

6. Think of a better excuse to explain to my mom as to why I'm currently failing a class so she won't be so angry at me :P

7. Turn in my senior portrait proofs for yearbook. ASDFGHJKL;

Random thought: A certain someone owes me a late night talk with full updates before I start scolding him for his laziness.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON TRAN <3