New Year, New Beginning

A new year is approaching and a new beginning is less than two hours away. It still feels like a usual day for me.

2008 is one hell of a year I must say. I've met a whole different variety of people via internet and created a strong connection with all. I'm grateful to have met each and every one of you guys. I totally hart you all! Plus, I turned 18 this year. WOOT! Haven't exactly party hardy as I wanted to, but it's all good. Everything else that has happened this year will always be a part of my memories, the good and bad. The upcoming year has to be the year to never forget. There's so many things to look forward to, I'm glad that I get a fresh start on all of them.

I do have some new years resolution that I'd like to accomplish for once.

• Get better grades
• Less profanity [I really don't like to curse now]
• Daily exercises and start a whole new nutrition diet
• Guitar and singing lessons [I hope]
• Go take a summer trip that's outside of LA or possibly out of state.
• Visit Deborah Mae!
• Change my old habits for the good of myself
• Drive drive drive!
• Possible chance of a vehicle for College
• Not take small things so seriously
• More quality time with the family
  
• & last but not least...GRADUATE!

Those are mainly the things that I hope to achieve during 2009. I know that it's a lot, but I hope to get through more than half at least or maybe all. I can't wait to put all the problems behind and look forward to the new year. I really want to make this new year unforgettable. So let's do well and celebrate as we embark on a fresh start!

Happy New Year everyone!

Melting Away

I have my days where I sit in my room and ponder within my thoughts about anything. Sometimes, it takes the whole day to do so just because I have nothing else to do. Wow, talk about not having a life, right? Mhmm...I wish my life would be so interesting and not so...boring.

Ahh, Christmas. The time of the year where everyone goes all jolly-olly mood as they celebrate with their loves ones at someone's house and opening gifts. My my...that sounds like tons of fun right? Heh, in my case...that kind of fun's drifting away. Ever since that incident almost two years ago involving my older cousins, everything hasn't been the same. The amount of family gatherings decreases and not enough closure I suppose. I don't even get to see any relatives until two months later where someone's birthday pops up. When it does, the party is usual, just a tad awkward in some ways. It's like nothing has happened and we continue where we left off. I know that deep down, so many things have happened during these two years...it's a bit crazy I must say. I hate family drama.

I'm kind of bummed of the fact that things aren't as what they used to, but nothing obviously lasts forever. All we have to keep are memories, but sometimes...I don't like to reminisce. I hate to dwell into the past on the good times when I know that they won't happen again in the future. The more I do, the more I won't get over it. So as usual, I leave it alone and not think one bit of it...until the holiday season. I guess at this point, it has hit me a little bit hard because this was the only time where the real fun happens. I mean, family reunions are one thing, but Christmas is huge to me. I just found out that I'll be staying home for both Christmas eve and day. Though the actual party is the 27th, I still am upset that I'll be staying home and rot while everyone else I know will be either out of town or spending time with their family. Can we say depressing? Kinda, but I don't know with you. I find it pretty sad. Even if it's not with the whole family, usually someone hosts a small get together and I'd be satisfied with that. Well...no one has bothered to host any on those days, so whatever.

Aside from that, I feel different now that things like this happen. I don't have enough of that Christmas spirit unlike others who do. It's like any other day anyway, so not something I'm looking forward to for this year. Maybe on the long run, things will patch up? I hope so...I'm still sad that mylate uncle won't be able to join us though, considering that he was our 'santa claus' who would pass out free money just for the hell of it. Rest in Peace.

Ya know, I wish that I had a different life to live in. A whole new perspective on things and not have a care on anything around me. I wouldn't be so down if I had the life like that. I wonder how everything would be in the end...I've come to realize that each time I have a problem, I tend to let it sink away by going on the internet. I spend majority of my time each day on the internet to get my mind away from whatever is bothering me. This doesn't happen every day since I'm naturally attached to my laptop. It's just times like this, I feel the need to let my problem melt away even though it's not a good idea. I can say it's my escape from what's really in front of me. Pretty bad, I know. I don't go out with friends as much as I used to. My social life's going down and I feel the need to put it back up during break. I just hate being home right now.

I'm going to edit tomorrow.

Blah Blah Blah...Christmas!

It's almost towards the end of December.

. . . and I still feel like it's any other month to me D:

Now that finals are over, I can sit down, relax and not think one bit about school...well at least after next Tuesday. But still, I don't have to deal with the horror of finals until towards the end of my second semester. I still can't get over the grade I have for spanish 3. My grade is a mother farking 89.1. WHAT THE?! 0.9% away from an A, and the bitch won't give it to me! UGHHHH. I've had an A all this semester and when it came with the final, it just ruined it. What a fruittart.

Before I start having a fit, might as well move on to the next topic.

I got to see the best friend a few weeks ago and slept over for two days. Did some bonding with her as we went around Oxnard and what not. She also picked me up along with her guy best friend, Edgar as they were on their way to LA. We then went to Santa Monica Pier with another friend, Christian. That night was funny, yet strange. We pretty much got lost somehow...and I live in the LA area. I'm such a noobcake, I should know where to go. HAHAH a GPS is needed in this case. Overall, the night was fun, even though it was kind of short.

Other than that, it's mostly school related that's been going on. Paul and I have been talking lately which is always good. We update each other on what's new with our lives. The talk ranges from 45 minutes to 3 hours. And I bet you're thinking 'oh something's up right there.' LOL in all honesty, nothing is going on. But it's great talking to him. At least we keep in touch nowadays.

The holidays are near! I still have yet to get a gift for my cousin, whom I have for our family's traditional secret santa. Might as well get him a toothpick since he always has something stuck in between his teeth. Ew...jk. I did some Christmas shopping yesterday with my mom, dad and my godfather at the Camarillo Outlet by Oxnard. My mom was the one who mostly paid for the stuff. Good thing they were mostly on sale, otherwise my mom's credit card would have been a bust. She actually bought more things for herself than me. Hahah, she and I should go shopping more once she finds another suitable job that pays good cash. I need to go back shopping and buy things for a few of my close friends. I'm kind of on a budget now that the economy is still going down. Might as well do some online window shopping and list down the items with a good price to pay.

Blah blah blah...the weather kind of sucks. It has rained this week while the cold weather gets...colder. Oh well.

For some reason, I don't feel like Christmas is coming up. As I said earlier in this blog, December seems like any other ordinary month to me. This year has went by so quick. It's like one blink can change everything and in this case, it sure has.

Don't kill me for this, but I finally tried Pho last night. My relatives from Oxnard took my parents and I out to dinner at Pho Saigon. Vietnamese food is bomb! Some of the waiters were kind of cute while I was there. HAHAHA!


I have the leftovers in my fridge.

I'm going to blog later. Happy early holidays!

Finals

I love the fact that our school had to change the original final schedule two days backwards, having us waste our freakin` time.

Thanks LA High, you guys are such morons.

I hate track school.

Yes, I know this is a short blog. I haven't blogged in three weeks. Woopiee.

I'll edit later.

Until then, PEACE!

and I love how people read other people's blogs OUT LOUD. [cough* Brandon!]


Don't you just love it? I sure do.