Internship Orientation/Freestyle Battle

This morning, I woke up at 7 am which is the earliest since work I think. I only had 5 hours of sleep since my conversation with Chris and Jayther. We were on BlogTV going through channels, even Kevjumba. Surprisingly, he came back on on the chat and attracted all users to come over. It was a good chat, despite of the spam and people wanted to be cohosted. I slept nearly at 3 am afterwards.

After I woke up, I got in the shower and made sure my uncle was awake to drop me off at KYCC for the orientation meeting regarding YDAPP (Youth Drug Abuse Prevention Program). It was a 5 hour meeting, which consisted of team building activities, information, future plans, etc. It was really awkward for me to sit there with people whom I don't even know, and I didn't make any conversation until we got into the scavenger hunt game. We were split into teams, and had to do different tasks depending to what it says on the sheet. It was fun, yet the weather really was a bother. We went all over Koreatown, or at least part of it for 45 minutes. I was with Julie and Ginah, who btw are really nice. We had to ask any owner from a liquor store for cigarettes as an optional task to get extras points. It turned out funny because the owners would give us a weird look, thinking "what the hell are they thinking?!" Usually most liquor stores don't ask underage teens for ID and would give out cigarettes/alcohol so easily, but when we asked them they instantly ask if we had an ID with us. Maybe that's why so many teens in Koreatown or elsewhere are getting too much consumption of those because some owners aren't that strict. In the end, the orientation was fun and my next meeting is on the 3rd. A camping trip is on the way for YDAPP and I really want to attend that one. I just hope I can convince my parents to let me since I have not camped all my life. I mean that literally.

I ended up staying with Ernie, the facilitator of YDAPP about half an hour. My uncle didn't arrive yet, so Ernie and I were watching this 'Dark Knight Trailer Spoof' on Youtube. Lily called me and we chatted for a few minutes, until I called her back while I got in my uncle's car on the way home with a box of left over pizza from Pizza Hut. No one wanted the remaining slices, so Ernie convinced me to take it home for my cousins. My parents along with my aunt, uncle & two cousins left for another prayer gathering near my cousin's place in 'Historical Filipino Town'. I don't even know why that name exists, other than that there's Filipinos living in that area...but historical?

Blast in the Past (or more like just yesterday): I went on BlogTV to watch Terarc go live, listening to him sing while playing with the guitar. Everyone would quote something and he sang from whatever we said. It was so entertaining. Oliver and I even had a freestyle battle on Ustream. Yes, freestyle friday battle ladies and gents. I didn't think I would get into it, but not as much as Oliver as he rapped everywhere. I sat there giving comebacks right away as people went "OOOHH ABBY!" I'm telling you, it made me laugh that I nearly woke my parents up. Oliver and I should do a freestyle battle video or something just for humor. I even did some freestyling on stickam today as well. What a good moment it was.

Oliver inspired me to take Spanish 3 after he said some phrases in spanish yesterday. I knew what he said, but some words I had to ask to refresh my mind. Afterall, I did stop after Spanish 2. I just hope that I'll be able to do fine this year, as I juggle with AP classes, Precal, and the internship. Oh dear lawd -__- Now I'm on skype with the follwing: Oliver, Anh, Chris, Jayther, Jeremy, Natalie & Maria. Jason left the chat out of nowhere. Maybe he's doing something or he lost connection. & Now Natalie dropped.

Btw, I told some of you I changed my blog url, which doesn't make any difference because it's actually the same, except I simply changed one part of it. I was using the internet after my YDAPP meeting and somehow my blogspot url was shown on the computer's address toolbar. I was freakin` out, thinking someone would read my blogs. So I've decided to change my url a bit, and thinking of putting my blogs on private. I need your e-mails (specifically the ones who have been reading my blogs) so I can add it to my list for those who are allowed to view my posts. Cindy, you should do this too. It'll totally help you keep your posts under wraps.

Like Acchord would say, "peace and a half".

Son of a Black Sheep!

It's about 1:14 am on Friday morning and I all of a sudden got the in mood to blog, so here I am :]
I'll keep this short and simple since nothing really happened so far.

I woke up at the same exact time again, which is strange. Mom bought me subway around noon and spent about 5 minutes enjoying such a great meal (turkey was what I ate). Savor the flavor! I should've saved the other half for later. Then I come to realize that my mom threw away my subway giftcard. Luckily I found it in the trash and need to reload it later.

After that, I spent a few hours chatting with people and noticed my cramps were a pain. So I decided to sleep it off for a few hours. Jared was flipping channels the whole time. It was really getting on my nerves because he would flip channels every 30 seconds. I even made him cry when I told him to put the volume up in a more irritating tone. Geez -.- As soon as my mom came in, she was like "What'd you do this time?!"

I had a late dinner by myself. I ate corned beef with rice along with some seafood looking pancake-ish (okay I won't even try to put it in details because I have no idea what it's called, but it looks like a pancake). Mom got angry when she found out I ate the leftover corned beef. So she started telling me to wash the dishes carefully in an angry tone. Knowing her, I just ignored the remarks.

I went back on the internet, talked to a few people such as Jasmin and Florisse. I was reading Florisse's status on AIM, and it said "Fried Pikachu", which by the way cracked me up. She then told me it was about how she and our friend Simon watched Pokemon movies the whole day and somehow came to that phrase. I find it cute when they're both watching it together. AWWWW!

Mom was watching Obama making his acceptance speech on NBC while he was live at Denver, Colorado. She commented saying "Obama's going to be assassinated once he's elected. He's afterall, a Muslim right? All Muslims are terrorists. Even your dad said so." First off, I don't remember my dad making that comment and he isn't a fan of politics. Second, that was such a stereotypical remark and it gave me a flashback of how she spoke about Koreans. Wtf!? Someone clearly doesn't know when to quit jabbering about those kind of comments. It pisses me off if I add something to it, she either tells me to shut up or ignore what I said. I can never have a decent conversation that includes some disagreeing. I don't even know why I tried in the first place.

Just earlier I was on BlogTV watching Brandon as he was cohosting Jessica (a.k.a PinchePirancha) & Joday. Even Happyslip came in the chat. It was an exciting conversation. My internet froze for some reason and so I couldn't reply to what Jason was saying as he and I were talking on Skype. I called Jayther to tell him I was having difficulties with my laptop. Once I came back on BlogTV, Brandon decided to have a kicking game. Jayther and I made an alliance, saying he should kick Joday first and hopefully we would be the last two to duel in the end. Unfortunately, Jayther was the first to be kicked while I was one of the last two standing. Some person by the name of 'Blacksheep' kicked me first before he or she won. I was like OH HELL NO! I was so close to be the last person there. Now you see why my blog title is the way it is. I heard Brandon saying he was rooting for me when he noticed I was one of the last two. DAMN IT! AHAH but It was fun anyway.

At this moment, I'm talking to Jayther on Skype and possibly go to bed earlier than I thought. Good day, mate...or is it good morning or night? Oh well!

Oh yeah.. YOUSTREAMSKYPE FTW! & I realized this wasn't a short blog. Teehee...

Five More Days?!

It's Wednesday and this week is going by fast for me. For a second there I thought yesterday was the day I got back from Oxnard. I still haven't bought my school supplies nor shopped for school clothes. I'm sort of running out of time and now that labor day weekend is here, it's going to be hectic. I can feel the rage from people as they run to the stores and purchase whatever is on sale like a pack of wolves wanting meat. I should shop before the weekend so it's easier on my end.

I really didn't do much today. Nothing interesting, except that meebo has been acting like a complete douchebag. So I've been signing on and off multiple times. I'm currently using AIM Express for the time being until meebo is fixed. I also talked to Jason, Cindayy and Chris on AIM which was fun. Jayther was helping me with the layout which I found yesterday. The layout didn't have the commenting feature for the blogs, so Jayther had to figure out how to fix that. By the way, thank you again for the help ! :]

During the day, I was having weird cravings for the following: hersheys, fried rice, a bit of dorritos, and repeat. I don't really know why. Something's definitely wrong with me right now. I'm starting to get worried over the amount of chocolate I've consumed. I'll possibly get diabetes now that my family has a history of it. My mom currently has it and it might be my turn. Oh no! ]:

Before I bring so much guilt towards myself for my lack of eating properly, I have 5 more days of vacation left. Technically it's 3 since weekends don't count and labor day is a holiday. I'm somewhat excited actually, yet curious on what's ahead. I guess I'll have to wait and see what goes on for the first day of senior year. Anna and I caught up a bit today, talking about hanging out together during the school year as well for participating together as interns for YDAPP. She's one of the few whom I'm close to at school than everyone else. Seems as though whenever I pass by people I normally see, it's more of a "Hey there, how are you?" and then leave right away. Talk about having a decent conversation there. I guess it's going to be the same when I come back for a new year.

Just an hour ago, I was at Chris Cendana's BlogTV chat for a while and it was enjoyable. Some guy name Eric (I forgot the last name) was cohosted and he was performing for us. He was pretty good, despite that he was too close to the mic so the sound was a little off. Then I had myself some leftover fried rice while my little cousin Jared repeatedly bothered me, saying what I was saying. I nearly got in trouble after making fun of him. I know I'm acting immature, but hey...he started it. AHAHA

I've come to realize that I've spent more time on the internet, talking to my youstreamskype family more than my real life friends. You guys are that addicting ;] But in all seriousness, I don't regret on meeting any of you guys because you are that amazing to me. I just wish I met you guys sooner than just earlier this year. Hey, half a year is still pretty long to me even if it seems short. I can't wait for that one day where we'll reunite, if it does happen. Let's hope it does.

*Edit* Mom: Why is your shirt backwards?
Me: It is? Let me check..
*looks down at the shirt*
Me: OMFG! How random.

AHAHAH!

Too Early to think about College?

Fall 2008 is almost here and I'm already thinking about which College I'm going to attend. I can't help but keep thinking about how well I've done for these past 3 years. I screwed up in some areas of my academics, which may be a downer. Now that I've finally reached senior year, I'm suppose to be enjoying my last year, right? Apparently, all I'm thinking about is whether or not I get accepted into the College of my choice. It's so nerve wrecking to me. I know I shouldn't be stressing myself over this, but the thought of how I'm going to deal with College applications and financial aid is a huge scare. An addition to that, SAT is right around the corner again. I did so poorly on the June 7th SAT. I won't even tell you guys my score. Yes, it's that horrible. I have enough time to study anyway, so I hope I won't take this time for granted.

Yesterday, I was looking up Cal Polytechnic University San Luis Obispo, which is about 3 and a half hours from home. I've been to SLO before, just for sight seeing and such. This has been on my College list for a while now. Problem is, their requirements for the major I'm aiming for, which falls into the Liberal Arts category (Psychology) is something I need to talk to my counselor about. I need one more year for Foreign Language and a year or two for Math. Oh and another year for Lab Science. Like my schedule for this year isn't enough to complete it -_- There's other CSUs to apply for, but I think either SLO or CSU Fullerton are the main two I'm striving for at the moment. I'm also thinking of going for some private schools such as Dominican University in Norcal, but I doubt it. I have to get my GPA straighten out and everything else during this final year at LAHS.

Some people have decided on what College they want to attend or what major they're aiming for. I wish I could've thought of all of this sometime around freshman year. I guess it finally hit me that a year from now, I'll be in the College of my choice. Thing is, I have so many 'WHAT IF's' in mind at this point. I can't be satisfied about it. Jana and I were talking about my classes I've taken during these past 3 years and she said I may have a chance to get into SLO. Btw, Jana also attends SLO as an incoming sophomore. If I don't make it into SLO, then there's other Colleges that I may consider of going. I need to stop doubting myself on whether or not I have what it takes. Blehhh.

My mom and I once had a talk on what College I wanted to attend. I gave her a list of Colleges and she said "Why do you want to live so far?!" It's not that I want to get away from LA (specifically just her...okay I'm kidding), but I want to know what's really out there. I love LA, but I think it's time if I step outside of the box on my own and take a glimpse of the real world. My mom wanted me to take Nursing like any other Filipino parent would say. I've thought of majoring in the medical field, but I realized it wasn't made for me. To her, it's all about getting a higher salary and a successful life, which is nice I guess. I'm not all for money or anything. As long as whatever job I do want, I'm actually content with it. I'll change my mind on the long run anyway. I can be quite indecisive if I don't have a final answer to what it is that I want to do with my life because there's so much to look forward to. I can't focus on one thing and instead keep my options open in case for anything.

I've imagined myself to either be a doctor, lawyer, technician, engineer, anything that people are most likely going to aim for. None of it is suitable for me. If I just let myself blend into whatever life offers, then maybe I'll find what I'm looking for. I know I don't have to know right at this moment. I'm just probably tempted to find out what my future has in stored for me.

I think this College talk is making me tired and somewhat worried. Ahhh pray for me guys. I can use for that right now. Oh yeah, Lily and I are planning to take College classes during next summer or whenever we're on break. I think that would be a good opportunity to catch up. By then, I'll probably be at the Philippines for this 50th anniversary celebration and a possible family reunion again. Thing is, I don't really feel like going this time. Oh well, we'll see what happens.

To those who started school yesterday, best of luck to all of you! Enjoy while you can :]

So I've been told about the ustreamer meet up for the 2012 Olympics in London, England. I'm so stoked, if it does happen. I hope it does so I'll be able to meet up with my ustream family. I think before then, we should try to meet up when we can. Four years is pretty long but it's the same with the 4 years of high school I've gone through. So I'm hoping time will go by quick. Imagine if we all do meet up by then, we'll be going out and explore what London has to offer, from the London eye to Big Ben and the settings the HP movie was shot at, not to mention trying to attend as many Olympic events as we can. Michael Phelps! AHAHAH! I hart all of you guys(:

Interesting Weekend

I sure have not blogged for the past 3 days now. Who knew that time would go by so quick. A lot has happened during these 3 days, mainly the weekend which I'll be talking about first. I'll try reading everyone's blogs as much as I can.

Yesterday, I woke up around 10 am and was told to hurry up because my dad was coming home from work and we had to leave right away to Oxnard. I ended up not going to my senior portraits & college fair, but the senior portraits will be taken care of after I call fotorama to ask when is the next time they'll come to my school again. So it was 11:30 I believe and we were heading to Washington Mutual to cash in my check. I got over $800 in cash and my mom took $50 to buy cake for my younger cousin, Jared. My dad was freaking out over his credit card because he thought he lost it. Turns out my mom had the card the whole time and he was a little heated. I forgot to bring my ID during the check process, but it turned out fine. Then we headed to Panorama city to chow down at Chow king. Dad went to do some groceries for the party while mom, lolo and I waited for his return. Finally, we were on the road to Oxnard. It was an hour drive and it went by pretty quick. I thought we would stop over Camarillo Outlet, but that happened the next day with dad and I.

We arrived at my Lola's house, which was the place my dad first lived in before he moved to LA years ago. It was boring at first since only a few relatives and friends whom I didn't recognize showed up. I waited for about 2 hours for everyone to come over. During those 2 hours, my cousin James and I just quickly caught up on some things. We talked about plans for college, senior year, classes and so on. It was a usual cousin talk knowing that he and I have not seen each other since June. My other cousin, Nikki later arrived from her short flags practice and we went to the front yard to see her demonstrate. The weather was pretty cold, and I wore shorts too. Such good timing to wear the wrong clothing. Nikki and I headed to the park nearby and went on the swings. It brought back good memories. Some mexican men were staring at us while we walked by. Another pedophile moment? Probably. I called my cousin Lily to see if she arrived to the house and she said yeah. After her arrival, so did everyone else. It was great to see majority of everyone again. Nicole called me regarding the performance and my speech. I had to leave before the prayer started. I felt horrible to leave early from the gathering, which was 6 pm.

My aunt dropped me off to Nicole's house and I saw about 15 people, along with a few of her relatives. She introduced me to everyone and they were chill. I finally met Nicole's half-brother Edgar. He reminds me of that actor Lou Diamond Phillips, and if you guys don't know who he is, look him up on IMDB. Anyway, the first performance was the polynesian one with Nicole and her two friends, Krista & Kim. They did some hip-hop dancing and it was so cute! Next performance was Krista's boyfriend, Nathan who I think hates me because I made fun of him most of the time. AHAH but he performed using a stick with fire and twisting it around. I find it amazing, though he kept dropping it several times. It was his first time so I gave him props for performing that. Then it was my turn on the speech. I knew I messed up while talking and the weather was getting to me. In the end, everyone went 'AWWWWW' as I finished and gave Nicole a huge hug. I felt so relieved about it. Nicole's best friend Edgar played the guitar with a few songs from Nicole's pop solo concert back in May. She sang songs such as 'Sexy Love' by Ne-Yo and 'Bleeding Love' by Leona Lewis. She kind of forgot some lyrics to the other songs and tried stalling. It was pretty funny actually.

Then the cake came along. It was so delicious with strawberries and other fruits included. After Nicole blew the candles, her kuya June (who btw was hilarious during the party with his jokes) came by and caked her! She had it coming and I joined in as well. Her hair had frosting all over it and we took photos. Too bad I didn't bring my camera because I still can't find the freakin` charger. Everyone chatted, danced, and had a great time during the night. As soon as the song 'I like to move it' played, we were all getting into it, jumping up and down. I suggested for a mosh pit (which I was kidding), and someone was like 'YEAHHH WE SHOULD!' Luckily it didn't happen or else we'd be injured by now. I danced with this guy name AJ, who is Nathan's best friend from Oxnard High School. He's weird, yet such a nice person to chat with. I didn't know that he's a senior. I thought he was a junior or something. Looks can definitely deceive you.

Once the party was over, the remaining people helped out with the cleaning. It was mostly all girls and about 4 guys that stayed until midnight. We played the game 'Baby, Do You Love me?' which was so hilarious! Here's how the game goes. You have to ask that question to someone and make sure they do't laugh when they say 'Baby I love you but I just can't smile'. They have to keep a straight face, or else it's there turn to ask someone else. I pretty much killed it when Nathan came to me. He's so out there and would do anything to make you laugh. He tried getting touchy with me because he knew I was such an easy target. I backed away and was like 'WTF?!" HAHAH ! Jasmin & Kim kept hers up most of the time, until they finally cracked. We all had a great time. Then the 'Truth or Dare' game is another story. Nathan kept picking dares the whole time while most of us were saying truth. It was my turn and I chose truth. Nicole was the one who asked and the question was 'which guy in this room do you honestly have an attraction with, whether it's small or big?' In my mind, I kept saying 'are you kidding me?' Then again, I did chose for truth. I looked at AJ and said it was him. He smiled and I stood there with this awkward feeling. Someone dared Nathan to jump on the small pond from the backyard and he surprisingly did. We rushed to the back and were rooting for him. His feet were so filthy that someone dared Kim to massage Nathan's foot. Talk about disgusting there. The most funniest moment that ever happened was when Christian, Nicole's childhood friend had to sit on Nathan's lap for a minute. I took a photo on it from my phone which I'll be posting up later when I find the USB cord. The song Nathan played was 'Hot in Here' by Nelly and Christian's officially scarred for life thanks to what he went through. I couldn't stop laughing as Nathan tried getting touchy with him.

Too many things happened and I'll forward to the part where Nicole dared me to sit on Edgar's lap until the next person is dared. At this point everyone had to choose dare or double dare because majority from the last round chose truth. Her mom thought Edgar and I were dating so it was too awkward. Since it was my turn, I asked AJ to kiss any girl in the room for about 5 seconds. He was too shy and had to wait a bit after we were constantly interrupted by Nicole's Lola. He rushed to me and gave me a quick kiss. I was surprised and somehow blushed. People were like 'AWWWW ABBY!' Oh gosh...-_- Edgar was asked which girl from the room that he thought was cute or he started to like. I wasn't paying attention and someone said it was me when he pointed. I was like 'what happened?' OMG, AJ gave Nathan a lap dance just for laughs and it was getting too sexual. We had to shut the door and windows so none of Nicole's parents can see. Everyone backed away and continued laughing. Now I wonder if AJ has some weird fantasies or something. Nathan somehow fell asleep on the table and it was time for the guys to go. Everyone tried waking him up, but nothing worked. The only thing we felt that would really wake him up was to carry him outside and push him off the table. Now I know that would be messed up, but damn it the guy is tall and heavy! Unfortunately, Nathan woke up and was like 'what the hell are you guys doing?!' All the guys but Christian left and all girls who stayed for the sleepover changed to our PJs. We slept in the living room, ate leftover food from the party, played DDR, Guitar Hero, and Super Smash Bros. Some watched 23 with Jim Carrey as the main character. I fell asleep right away and was later told Christian was playing with my hand. I was dead asleep according to Krista. I guess I was really tired afterall.

Around 9 a.m, everyone was awake and we chit chatted. We were told to clean up, get dressed, and eat out at the city buffet. Kim was helping me getting my hair done while some were sitting around or were showering. It was 1 pm when we departed from Nicole's house to the buffet. As we got there, there were way too many people, even the rude ones that were cutting. I had about 2 rounds and an ice cream cone. Everyone was stuffed. My dad called and said I have to get my stuff ready so he can pick me up. We all headed back to Nicole's place and waited for my dad's arrival. I was continuing with my ghost storie from the Philippines to Jasmin and Kim. They were freaked out about the events that occurred. My dad finally arrived and I quickly gave everyone a hug and left. Kim suggested we should hang out again by the time I visit Oxnard soon. I'm so down for that! Dad and I went to the outlet for some shopping. Turns out there wasn't really anything to buy, well for my dad at least. We saw some of my relatives and my godfather along with this couple whom is a friend of my relatives. We stopped by Pacsun to look around for anything on sale and such. I wanted to get two jeans and two t-shirts, but the line was too long and my dad was getting tired. We decided to come back later. On our way back to LA, I fell asleep in the car while my aunt, lolo and my dad spoke about a lot of things. My stomach was hurting for some reason. Maybe it's the buffet or it's just cramps. We dropped off my aunt and lolo before we headed home. Now I'm waiting for the closing ceremony for the Olympics to come on. Whew...what a long blog. I had to include all of this :]

Skypeme game anyone? I missed you guys!

Ughhh.

Once again, I was a little pissed off after what I found out, which some people such as Chris know what I'm talking about. I don't get what the hell this person's problem is. I have not said ONE freakin` word towards him for the longest and his smart mouth does it again. Idiot I tell you. So I decided to delete him from my myspace & AIM list. Seeing his SN/URL link annoys the shit out of me. I know I'm just being a klutz right now, but I seriously can't take it.

I love how certain people enjoy to say such crap about me, and not confront me about it. No one wants to be bothered such childish actions from anyone. I guess you can say I'm probably taking this a little too far, but what the hell. I shouldn't be bothered about it. Afterall, it's just one person. I feel like a 'weaksauce'. I would say something I know I'll regret, but I won't even try. It's already making me feel frustrated thinking about it. Whatever, I won't speak of this anymore.

Aside from that, yesterday wasn't too bad. I was watching Gokusen 1 and I have yet to finish watching all episodes. I went on BlogTV and was given moderator privileges by a friend at Shimmy's channel. I got to kick noobs :] That was exciting. I stayed for an hour and left to Christian's channel. Good timing though since he was leaving already. Way too many people talked at the same time. It's like a whirlwind in there. My desktop didn't lag this time. Thank goodness for that.

I went on Skype to talk with the people I've been speaking with for the longest. I'm always cheery whenever they're around. I hart you guys (: So yeah, I was watching the Olympics, specifically the beach volleyball with May & Walsh. Those ladies are my true idols. They sure know how to kick ass out there. I praise them for their volleyball skills. Makes me miss being a part of my school's volleyball team. Oh well, I chose school over volleyball for a good purpose. Now that I have an internship, my final year's going to be a drag. Pray for me guys. I had rocky road ice cream, which satisfied my hunger. Where would you hear that phrase from? Cough* Snickers!

Just earlier, I spoke to Jasmin regarding her current situation with a guy whom she's been liking since Christmas. I guess things didn't go well with her and him right now and she was crying while playing with the guitar. I knew from right then that I had to comfort her. I started to open up to her a bit as she did the same, yet she was tired of opening up to others due to things that went on during summer. I told her I'd make sure to be there whenever she needed since I am caring towards the people I adore. I hope things will tone down with her and the guy.

Oh yeah, I wrote my speech down for Nicole's birthday this Saturday. I still need to add a few more things and I'm good to go. I just need one person to evaluate whether or not it's good enough before I finalize it. Just two more days left and I'm already feeling nervous about it. The school called about my senior portraits and the college fair for seniors. I'm pretty stoked because I'll be able to see people like Jenny, whom I spoke with a few hours ago. She and I agreed to switch appointment times since I'll be leaving for Oxnard sometime around 1 p.m. I have to get the right attire to wear and my hair done. I don't want to look horrible for the yearbook. Speaking of yearbook, I should finally purchase a yearbook after 3 long years. I haven't gotten a yearbook since my middle school days. I guess the cost for my school's yearbook is high, yet the layout of it is crap. I'll get it anyway to look back at the good times.

I'm also going to get my paycheck later today. The guy from UCLA called and said to pick it up at the place where I picked up my application for work. Not sure what the amount is so I'll be looking forward to it. At this moment, I'm on Jad's BlogTV page with a few people. He's going to learn how to play 'Stolen' by Dashboard Confessional on the guitar and sing it to me one day. Yayy!

I guess that's about it for now. I forgot to edit hours ago. Sorry guys.

I don't get it

What I hate right now is the fact that people you thought they care for you would suddenly push you away right out of the blue. The feeling of frustration and partial sadness is what I'm having right now. Mostly it's all frustration at this point. Now I know that I've lost friendships over the past few years and I know that in some, it was my fault. I do tend to push others away without realizing it. I do all these mistakes simply because I'm human . We're all meant to make mistakes in life. I don't know what I did to this certain person, but I'm no longer going to have it.

I'm tired of caring too much and try to fix things. For this one, I won't even attempt to resolve anything. I can't seem to comprehend this person's way of behavior towards others. I knew that last month, I had to break away from the remarks. I was not going to deal with his bullshit. For once, I felt the kindness from this person towards me instantly shifted. I just missed how he and I would communicate over anything, no matter how short or long the conversation was. I have no idea who he is anymore.

I won't give any thought on what I should do. I already decided to move on with it and not make things worse. My mind has set up on its own. Sometimes, when people seem to break away from me, I feel like a horrible person even if I did not do anything to offend them. That sort of guilt stays within me for a while. There are times where that guilt still lingers. I can't undo what happened nor have a say to it. It comes to show that I shouldn't care for those who don't need me in general.

If I could, I would apologize for whatever it is I did to anyone. It may be too late to say sorry because it may not cut it. That's all I can say, just sorry. There's not much to include for that. I want to finally live in peace. I don't need any dead weight to pull me back, which concludes that I don't need that person.

I'll be editing about my day later tonight. I had to get this out of the way.

Here's a Title :]

Lately, I've been a little lazy blogging and I surely have no idea why. Maybe school's coming in less than 3 weeks and the laziness is really sinking in. I'll try not to slack off during my last year at LAHS. Okay, scratch the try part. I know I CAN'T slack off, period. This is a serious matter. So where do I start...

First off, I'd like to say Happy Birthday again to my buddy from down under, Ralphie. I'm glad you enjoyed the birthday collaboration video everyone was involved in. I should have thought of something better than M&M's, but it was the only thing around my house other than certain types of food I don't enjoy eating. I wish you the best in everything :]

What the heck did I do yesterday?! Let's recap. Surprisingly, I woke up an hour before 11 am. YAY! I was relieved and I think I called Florisse or Nicole around that time. My mom was watching this movie on Lifetime about this transgender teen. I think the movie was called "Girl Like Me" and something else said after that. I didn't get to finish all of it though. Watching Lifetime movies are interesting depending on the plot and all.

Most of the day, I went online and chatted on AIM/MSN. Jana and I did some catching up and talked about the Twilight series. She read half of the first book and said I should check them out at the nearby library if I have the chance to. I said sure and need to register for a library card again, or purchase them at Borders/Barnes and Noble. I know majority of people these days have sucked in on reading this story. The first movie comes out a month earlier, which is November. Robert Pattison [sp?] who plays Cedric Diggory from HP: Goblet of Fire is starring as Edward Cullen. This will be interesting. Can't wait to watch it, although the book is better than the movie itself.

I did some Skyping with some peeps, went on BlogTV and watched Infused08, Ninjadrops, and Slusho. It was worthwhile. My friend Denise was spazzing over Ninjadrops [Christian], especially the other day when he was lip synching. That was awesome. Unfortunately, BlogTV lagged my laptop. So I had to keep refreshing the damn page. My desktop works fine with it due to lack of files on the computer. I need to delete tons of files that are rarely used so it'll go faster for my laptop. While on Skype, Chris introduced Jeremy to the Skypeme game. Jeremy gave it a go and was sucked in to it for it's amusement. Never thought there's way too many perverts on Skype now. I think we'll all be playing the game on Friday when no one's busy.

I watched a bit of the Olympics, mainly Track and Field & Running. The Surprise happy birthday video for Ralphie was posted and I ended up watching that for a good while. I loved how it turned out. I LOLed at both Brandon & Jason's part the most. It was so hilarious! Jason got guts to eat that chili pepper. If I was him, I would only eat a small part of it than whole. Props to him for that.

Around 2 am, Denise showed me a link of this Korean movie called 'Temptation of the Wolves' on Youtube. I watched 5 parts out of 12. So far I like the plot in the movie and the main characters [guys] are pretty hot. AHAH! I definitely will finish that after I eat my brunch in a bit. After watching the first 5 parts, I was off to bed. Woke up around 9:30 since I set my alarm clock for my phone at that time. Sadly, I was still tired and my body wasn't fully wide awake. I ended up sleeping and kept waking up a couple more times until the clock striked at 11. Now that was a failure.

I think that's it. My mom's almost home with the burger & fries she bought from Tom's. What a great way to start your day by eating that. How fattening...Oh and I got to start on that speech for Nicole's early birthday party this Saturday. I'm getting nervous by the minute because I heard some of her close family members are coming over other than her friends. AHHH! Wish me luck!

*edit*: I'm starting to feel out of place...I don't know what I'm missing. It's a bother.

Quick Update

It's Sunday and time surely goes by quick. I HATE THAT. I don't even realize what time it is and I feel like I woke up just 10 minutes ago when it was more than an hr. Yes, I woke up at the same exact time again. Usually around 11:25ish. I DON'T GET IT. I can't get myself to wake up around 9 am. How lame is that?! UGHHH. New plan: must attempt to sleep as early as 12:30 am, but I know I'm not going to because it's summer.

Let's start with what I did yesterday. Woke up around 11 and I noticed the Olympics was on. I ended up watching most of it, especially with track and field and running. I forgot who won so I'm going to check that out later. My dad took my mom to a nearby park where she can practice driving. Surprisingly, my dad said she did a good job although she was getting a little confused. I wanted to go and witness that. I think they're going to the park again today and every weekend.

My parents later went to my aunt's house for a prayer while I stayed with the rest. I don't have the urge into going to any praying gatherings nowadays. I have no idea why. Maybe I get too tired of listening to the priest's lectures or most of my relatives aren't going anymore. Things have surely changed. This gathering is the only gathering my family is joining (or at least a few) for this fiesta around early October. Any other gatherings that have to do with birthdays is rare. I miss the good times...

I talked to some people on Skype as usual and some of us were reading these questionnaires from Yahoo. One had to do with "Is it okay to chew on poop?" or "Can masturbation get me pregnant?" and the most hilarious question of all: "Why did the state of Georgia declare war on Russia?!" Some people need to learn their geography! These type of questions crack me up as I read the answers. I could not believe some users wrote 3 paragraphs about the topic. The ones I've read are at least 5 sentences or less. Then, we decided to do the whole Skypeme game that Jason & Chris started a few days ago. This time, I finally joined and made a new account. My username was "babydollface219" and the name I chose was "Annalynn HeffaHump". I kept changing names due to not having any private IMs popping up. I forgot to change my age and gender, so that was the reason why. Great job, Abby -_- Everyone else got at least more than 5 and I think Brandon had a few calls and actually answered it. AHAHA! Not sure if we'll be able to do it again today and if so, then I'll probably be down for it just for laughs.

Another gold medal is given to Michael Phelps. YAY! That's 8 now and I'm going to watch one more event that involves him today. I'm sure he'll do an amazing job. Jason's probably saying "Psh! Phelps again!?" as he's reading this. Tehehe! My cousin and I were talking about Phelps before the relay race occurred. She said he could be half man and half fish. I was like, you mean Dolphin to be exact. Seriously, I think he could be part Dolphin. LOL!

I went on Ustream for a while and talked to Jayther, until I went off to bed. I came back on Skype and noticed Daniel, Jason, Jom and Ralphie were still on. I talked to them for about 20 minutes and finally slept at 4 am. What a day it was, or partly today. I just had a burrito and the smell is still stuck in my hands while using soap from Bath and Body Works. BOO! This always happens to me. You think Sanitizer may work?

From the wise words of Garbo, "Jason, you MESS!" oh and "UP YOURS!" AHAHA!

Now I hear 'Pursuit of Happyness' on HBO.

I'll be editing this later when something good happens :]

It's Friday!

Once again, I woke up around 11 am. That time has its meaning to it. Not sure what but yeah. My mom went out all day with my aunts after she had an interview for this new job in downtown. I forgot to ask her what kind, but I'll ask tomorrow.

My aunt who lives with me bought some panda express, which had me eating majority of it and saved the rest for later. I always have the shrimp included since I'm a huge fan of fried shrimp. While I was eating, the Olympics was on and it was focused on track and field and other sports that were on. Track and field automatically reminds me of Marion Jones, who was caught using steroids and had her gold medals taken away. Talk about stupidity. One runner from the US had a stomach virus and decided to end the race after walking out. I heard it was due to her lack of consumption of food. She should eat more carefully, especially when it's the Olympic season.

Speaking of Olympics, once again Phelps dominated. Sorry if my blogs are annoying when they have something to do with him. I just admire him, and no I am not obsessed [JASON]. He's definitely a hero to me. The one who got the silver protested about the end of the race where he felt confident that he finished first. Then one thing led to another and Phelps still won. That would be his 7th gold medal, which I believe is a medal behind from Spitz's record of 8. Let's go Phelps! There's like two more events coming up for him and he can finally rest.

Thanks Jayther for letting me know about Sxephil's video on Phelps

The water pipe was getting fixed during the day and I had to wait until it was over. I was desperately wanting to use the restroom. Fortunately, my bladder did not explode. Every time I hear the word water, I know my bladder's going to make me want to pee. HAHA! As soon as the pipes were fixed, HALLELUJAH! I rushed to the restroom like a cheetah chasing a BMW in the safari.

A friend by the name of Steven spoke to me on AIM and talked about some things that happened to him in middle school. Now that he's striving for a basketball scholarship and a chance to go to the Philippines to join the PBA, I'm proud of where he's heading to. The way he was back then was very ugly indeed. I wish him the best though.

I stumbled upon Youtube and I watched Brandon's Wishes video. OMG, my computer frozed at the part where he does the wishes and the expression on his face literally cracked me up. Luckily I got to print screen it and here it is.


HAHAH sorry Brandon. This was too funny.

Anyway, I mostly skyped with the people I've been talking to and they're awesome. Keeps my day going because of them.

I think that's about it for now, unless I'm going to have something random popping into my mind and tempting me to write about it.

" I'm in it to WIN it, not to back out.
I can say that I'm finally going straight to the top
. . . without a doubt."

PHELPS = NOT GAY!

I come on blogger to realize that I have 31 blogs (32 if you include this one) I've posted since June. That's been the most I've had since the last time I blogged from a different site. I guess I enjoy writing here than writing on paper nowadays. Okay anyway...

Today I woke up at around 11, which is a huge no-no. I've been waking up around that time now and that habit has to stop. I usually wake up around at least 9:30, but two hours after that is going over the line. My mom was waiting for a phone call from my aunt, who came over with my little cousin to stand by until we drop them off at LAX. They arrived sometime around 2 pm. The little one, by the name of Pauline was tickling me most of the time. She noticed the change of my hair and said it's cute. That little cutie. I'm going to miss her so much! I won't be seeing her and my aunt until my parents and I go back to the Philippines next summer. Her older sister Mary is currently in New Jersey and is staying there for maybe a month. I'll be seeing her around September when she comes over for the weekend.

Speaking of Mary, she came over to my house two weeks ago and we bonded for a good while. When my parents and I dropped them off to the hotel near LAX, she asked if she can borrow my cellphone. I hand it to her and she was transferring files using bluetooth from her phone. I didn't realize that she put the song "Lean Like a Cholo" in my playlist, which is the song that I dislike right now. I found out about that a week later while I was on my way to work to get my paycheck. She was waiting for me to tell her that while she and I spoke on YM. She laughed so much only because she knew that song was an annoyance to me. I started laughing too so it was out of fun. I can't wait to see her again.

My dad and I dropped my aunt and Pauline at LAX around 7:30. My aunt's friend whom she hasn't seen in over 20 years went with us (and dropped her off to her place afterward). Pauline was constantly tickling me as she and I were messing around. I called Nicole to talk about her little get together for her 17th birthday, which is held next Saturday. Her friend Krista called and asked for advice regarding her situation with her now ex-boyfriend, Nathan. He says that he still loves her, but he wants to talk to other girls. Nicole asked me what advice I should give to Krista. Unfortunately, I couldn't because people were so loud at LAX that I told her I'll call her as soon as I get home (well after I finish this blog). It's a bummer that Krista is going through this. I remember Nicole telling me that Nathan would want to date Krista by the time senior year is over. It's like he's expecting her to wait a year for him if she's the one or not. I wouldn't go through that if I was her. I hope she'll make the right choice for this.

I can't help but feeling so worried over Nicole's cousin Andrew, who lives in Norcal. He just got in a car accident and is in a temporary coma as of now. According to Nicole, she said he'll eventually wake up and I hope he will. Oh and I'll tell you a little history about Andrew. Basically, he and I once dated for while. I knew him since last summer and at the time he and I got to know each other little by little. One day, he suddenly stopped talking to me due to an incident that occurred sometime at the beginning of this year. Since then, he and I haven't talked. I really did like him though and the thought of him in a temp. coma scares me. He was drunk driving when this happened and now he's charged with a DUI. I'm worried, yet I just want to smack the hell out of him for what he did. I just hope things will blow over soon. I know his family is finding ways to pay the hospital fee and asked Nicole's family for help. Once I see Nicole next saturday, I'll give some of my savings just to help out.

Anyway, I was really hungry after realizing that I didn't eat dinner. I find a happy meal box that was filled with stale fries, hamburger, and fish filet which belonged to Pauline. I ended up eating that instead. I know...I'm an idiot. On a brighter note, dad and I went to Ralph's to buy some groceries and I finally bought the Special K cereal and granola bar. YAY! Oh and I got some cakesters only because I haven't had any for the longest.

I think that's about it for now. Olympics is on. Time for some yelling at the TV ;]

You're probably saying 'WTF' about the title of this blog. That's directly for Jason since he actually put 'PHELPS = GAY' as one of his labels on the blog he just posted. That jerk! Too bad Spitz's record of the most gold medals has been beaten by PHELPS. HA!

New.

I was suppose to see my little cousins this morning, but turns out that their mom found an excuse to get out of jury duty. So I didn't get to see them this morning because I was asleep and they left so soon. I wanted to play with the little one, who just turned 1 last monday. Aww, boo!

Mom asked if I wanted to get a haircut today and I said sure. Took about 3 bus rides to get to the place, but it didn't take too long. Mom got hers done by a Filipino hairstylist while I had mines done by a Hispanic lady. She was nice and talked to me about how she's been working with Filipinos for 20 years instead of Hispanics. Damn, 20 years!? Really long. I couldn't wait to see how my hair would look like. Turns out that my hair was TOO short, but it'll grow within a few months. One of the workers said my hair looks like Katie Holmes, short with a bit of side bangs. I was like seriously...bleh. The guy advised me to do some certain steps to put volume for my hair, keep it shiny and make sure it doesn't come out dry. I know I'm going to be lazy when I try maintaining it. Haha!

I'd show photos, but I'm too lazy to upload and I can't find my battery charger for the camera. I know I misplaced it somewhere. Hmm . . .

My aunt picked both my mom and I up and went home afterward. As I got home, I got the letter from KYCC where the internship I applied for is held. I was getting nervous when I opened the letter. Then the moment of truth is here...

I GOT THE INTERNSHIP! =D YAY! I'm truthfully happy and I'll surely do my best during the upcoming year. I didn't think I'd get it after how I did at the interview. Thank you, Ernie! Btw, he's the one in charge of the program and the interview. WOOT! No more suspense!

Now I'm going to treat myself by watching the first Gokusen & eat fried rice. I thought there weren't any left, but I was wrong. Where's the sweets when you need it?! LMAO!

Okay this blog seems kind of boring. Sorry, I'm a little lazy to write more. I'll be sure to continue later today or so.

OLYMPICS DAY 6! Who's down to watch? ME! (:

Have a good day/morning/night!

*edit*

Here are the photos of my haircut, as a request from certain people(;

Yay or Nay?

This morning I woke up exactly at 7:10 am after setting the alarm clock on my phone last night. I slept in for another 10-15 minutes and my mom came in to check up on some things. So around 8:00 am, I finally woke up and went to the living room to sit on the couch. Mom finished studying for the DMV written test, which I'll be talking about in a bit. Around early 9 am, mom and I went to the bus stop, took two bus rides to the DMV in Hollywood (and were frustrated while looking for the place as we walked around). Finally, we managed to find the place.

We walked in and went in line to get the application filled out. As soon as we turned it in, this guy asked me if I had my birth certificate or my passport as proof of my age. I told him I didn't and he even asked if I had a California ID. Again, I had the same response. Then I realized that I have to get any of those documentations and come back in order to take the written test, which by the way pissed the hell out of me because it totally slipped my mind. I sat on the chair feeling agitated and gave attitude to my mom about the situation, saying it was stupid. She assumed that I called her stupid, so she was telling me off as we sat. I stood there in silence and waited for about a good hour. As my mom was taking the test, I needed to vent to someone regarding the situation. I called my cousin Lily and explained to her what went on. She was also saying 'WTF' about it. After about half an hour of talking, she had to go and I was still waiting for my mom. Then, the moment of truth finally came. My mom passed her written test. She was so relieved and I felt even more bleh about it, but I congratulated her anyway. It was my fault for not bringing in the papers since I didn't put it into thought.

Mom and I left the DMV place to get some food at Panda Express, but we went straight to the AT&T store regarding our request to change some features to our family plan & our phone bill. We both decided to get unlimited text messaging since it's more convenient rather than going for the 1500 text messages. At last, I finally got it. I was bugging my parents about it for a good while, and it came. I was getting worried about going over my 200 free text messages and I kept track to the amount of messages I've received and sent. Mom asked one of the workers, who is Filipino and a good friend of my mom about my debit card from AT&T. It hasn't arrived yet and we were beginning to wonder why. The lady (by the name of Ana) said it's already been approved recently and that I'll get it within a week or so. Yay, debit card for Abby? Sweet. I know I have to use it wisely than going insane over it.

After that, mom and I went to Ralph's to get some meat for dinner and went home. I forgot to purchase the Special K cereal. Damn it.

Oh yeah, I'll be taking my written test tomorrow morning after I study tonight, again. This time, with my passport & birth certificate. -__-

Here I am, blogging about this and Jason is IMing me on AIM saying that everyone is blogging now. Yay, more blogs to read(:

MICHAEL PHELPS ON NBC TONIGHT! GO GO GO!

The USA Men's Gymnastics team were amazing last night. They were really intense with their moves and all. I was surprised. Unfortunately, China stole the gold while USA took the bronze and Japan took Silver. Great job, USA.

Oh Bloody Hell! Say What?!

As of right now, I feel like I need to get out of this house. I'm tired of being here 24/7. I don't know what else to say at this point. Well, there's more to say, but since I'm sleepy and feeling a little down, I'm going to edit this later during the day.

On the bright side, USA's swimming team beat France. WE ATE YOUR FRENCH TOAST SUCKER.

Just wanted to let that part out.

Good night or day.

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Okay as I promised hours ago, I shall redit this blog.

This weekend wasn't too bad, despite of the heat. It's day three of the olympics and the swimming team is getting better and better, in my opinion. Phelps is on his way to get about 10 gold medals in total now? Wowsers. He's definitely my motivation and hero. US needs to step it up better and kick ass out there. The reaction coming from team USA's face after that stunning win against France's Alan Bernard was EPIC! It was funny how NBC played back their expression and how Lezak finished first before Bernard. That's what I'm talking about. That's what Bernard gets for trash talking. Karma baby! Other sports, such as the USA's girls volleyball loses to Cuba and I know there's more. Too lazy to find the info. You can check it out on nbcolympics.com for live footage and latest news. I guess I was too hyped up for the victory with the relay race in swimming. Oh and synchronize swimming was awesome as well as gymnastics. China and USA are going head to head on gymnastics as of now. I wish them luck.

I haven't spoke to Florisse for a few days now and it feels like forever actually. We need to catch up on a few things. She just texted me saying that she's going to LA today with her relatives for shopping and heading to Chinatown. I really want to see her at least, but I have no freakin` car & a license to get there. I'd use the bus, but I'm getting tired of going on it because of work. I'll be sure to get her the Death Note notebook she's been talking about for Christmas. I'll keep that in mind by then so I'll be able to get it in advanced.

There's no plans this week other than taking my written test on Tuesday. I just need to review some questions from dmv.org, the handbook, and so on in order to be prepared. I think I'll do fine since it is common sense.

I just realized that this past weekend I've only watched the Olympics on TV, which is the most I've watched on Television since last time I can remember. I usually go on the internet most of the time or watch movies. Wow, I really need to get a new hobby.

It's 12:22 pm and I still haven't had brunch yet. I was thinking of eating that leftover BBQ from yesterday or something simple. I'm leaning towards eating cereal by now, even though it's already noon. I used to skip breakfast whenever I'm in school simply because I only eat when it's around 11 am or 12 pm. Yeah I know, I'm that weird. Now I start eating a little earlier than expected. I used to have stomach aches during school days because of it. Way to take care of myself -_- Lack of sleep is another thing. I really need to stop getting up around 10 or 11. The latest has been 11 am, and that's not good.

I feel a little bit better from last night. I was kind of bummed out over something to do with this meet up I wanted to attend. No worries, maybe next time I'll be able to go, but that would be in a while. I guess I was getting upset over how certain people were putting it in detailed about the event. It kind of got to me at one point. Sorry guys.



Phelps reaction ROCKED! haha & I need a better video

http://www.nbcolympics.com/video/share.html?videoid=0811_HD_SWB_HL_L0194

Watch the WHOLE thing. The EPIC relay race.

OMG, Seriously?!

It's day two of the 2008 Beijing Olympics and so far it's getting better. USA's well-known swimmer Michael Phelps sure made a new time record and beat the rising swimmer, Ryan Lochte by a second I believe. Now we all know Michael Phelps has that natural talent of being a swimmer, but will he continue to rise by 2012? I hope so. He stunned me after his victory from the 400m swim and not to mention getting the gold medal! I am very proud of him. I've watched other sports that went on and can't wait to watch more. All I know is that USA Men's Basketball team beat China (sucks that Yao Ming had to deal with this defeat since I admire him too). This isn't over yet.



Mhmm, This guy's victorious. I wish him the best for Monday's swim meet. GO USA!

Also, Bernie Mac passed away yesterday with complications of pneumonia. I liked the guy and his jokes. He was so hilarious in the movies I've watched with him in it, especially Head of State. He'll always be known for his work and what he brought outside of the movie industry. Rest In Peace, Bernie.


(1957-2008) at age 50.

I was suppose to go to mass today, but I overslept and my parents went without me -_- I kind of feel bad not attending mass now. I haven't been going for weeks. Last time I went was my uncle's funeral, which was at the end of May. As a Catholic, I haven't been devoting myself to God in so long. Ehh, I need to start going to mass again.

Nicole and I spoke on the phone about an hour ago over certain things. Her guy best friend, Edgar seems to have a crush on me after several messages he's been sending to me lately. According to her, Edgar things I'm very cute and a nice person to talk to. I'm flattered, yet I don't seem to feel the same way. He and I have gotten to know each other step by step, but I think it's just for building this friendship. He even asked me out on a date. I told Nicole it was only for a hang out sort of thing, not like THAT. I'd love to meet him though.

Aside from that, Nicole's relieved she heard my voice again since one of her friends has been calling her nonstop over her breakup with her ex-boyfriend of nearly 3 years. Dang, that's too long for a high school relationship. The guy broke it off to see other girls and find out if the girl (whose name is Krista by the way) is the one. Also, I think the guy has been checking out other girls before the breakup happened. Nicole informed Krista about that and the guy (Nathan) was furious. Then again, he felt guilty and apologized for what went on. Anyway, so Krista has been calling more than Nicole's boyfriend and I. Thing is, the girl has been bawling like crazy. She even calls Nicole at 5 am in the morning. I would not blame Nicole for feeling annoyed by Krista's phone calls. If Nicole doesn't pick up, then Krista would text message her too. Geez, a friend like that can really get on anyone's nerves. I remember her telling me they spoke from 8 pm to 5 am and again Krista calls Nicole 2 hrs later. WTHECK! This has been going on for 3-4 days now. I don't know how Nicole's going to keep up with that.

It's sunday and I haven't followed up with my Asian dramas since Wednesday. I think I should continue today and the rest of this week?

Omg, I'm not liking California's heat . . . not one bit.

Olympics/Senior Portraits/Other Updates

It's about 2:33 am as I'm typing this and my golly, I should be sleeping by now. I know I have been up way too much and knowing that I've developed baggy eyes, I might as well turn out to look miserable for my senior photos. Bleh, I think that I'm really nocturnal afterall.

The opening ceremony for the Olympics started at 7 pm and it turned out great! I was really impressed with the effort China has given to put all of this together. From the fabulous performance to the torch ceremony has brought China to a higher level than I thought. I mean, the new stadium, which is known to be a shape of a bird's nest took a couple of years to build. Its structure flipped me out in a good way. A stadium like that will last for ages I bet. Everything was beautifully built and well done. I'm excited for what's next for this year's Olympics. I saw the one about Handball at the NBC Olympics website, where it shows everything from the Olympics on live. I only watched half an hour of Handball (I forgot who played against who since I wasn't looking at it carefully). I'll be following up with other sports currently going on as soon as I wake up later during the day.

I got my letter from Fotorama regarding senior photos. My appointment is on the 23rd at 2 pm. On the same day, I'll be attending a novena at my aunt's place at Oxnard, an hr up north from LA. I'll have to see if I'll be able to get this through or reschedule. I'm not sure which package to choose for the portraits, but I have enough time to decide for that. I'm somewhat excited, yet I'm a little conscious when it comes to my smile. I know my teeth aren't perfectly aligned, but it's so ugly to look at. I was suppose to get braces by now, yet I still haven't got my 4 wisdom teeth pulled out. My parents are once again holding this back. Even if I constantly remind them, they'll keep saying "We'll talk about that later" or "Ask your papa about that." I'm going to bug them so they can finally let that sink in their mind. I need to think on what to wear on that day. Hm...

After 6 long months since the last time I spoke to this person, I finally messaged her. Well, this girl and I have been estranged from one another due to an incident that happened earlier this year. Today's her birthday and I decided to greet her since I still happen to remember. She was surprised that I messaged her right out of the blue. She even said it made her smile. That gave me a feeling of relief that there isn't any animosity between us. I never really did to begin with because I always thought she had something against me. Anyway, it was a short yet simple conversation that turned out alright. Hopefully we'll be able to talk again soon. Depends if things will fall into place with her and I again.

Just to let anyone know, once senior year strikes in I'll be busier than ever. Juggling my classes with (hopefully) the internship I applied for YDAPP is going to be tough. This is, in a way, a good opportunity to test myself to see if I'm ready enough to take such responsibilities as an adult. I can't keep continuing on doing the same habits that has to do with last minute work and all. I want to drop that and start from scratch. This can also help me prove to my parentals that I'm responsible enough to handle things on my own without any help. I mean I'll still ask for guidance from them and such, but things that have to do with myself only is another thing. My mother still thinks I'm immature, which in some ways I still am. I'm slowly growing step by step even if I am eighteen. It's not the age that determines how mature you are, but how you approach things, depending on what it is. I used to take things as a joke and act as if I didn't really care. Thing is, that took a huge effect on me. I've realized that if I continued to act like this later, I know I'm not going to gain anything good from it. At times I still feel like a 12 year old, always depending people for guidance when I should be trusting what both my mind and heart want. I can't have all the answers to everything right now. That's just impossible. Things like this seem to appear in my head every now and then.

I'm not worried over things as I used to and some of the weight on my shoulders disappeared one by one. I guess I don't focus on this unlike before where I'd have the same thoughts on repetition. I'm content that I stopped.

What's good to have right now is a book to read, especially at a time like this. I'm easily bored when it's 3 in the morning. Sure I go on the internet and read what's currently going on, but something to take my mind off from reality is a dosage I do need. I might read "The Giver" since that book is lying somewhere in my bedroom.

This weekend, I'm not exactly sure what's going to happen. My mom just told me that I'll be getting another haircut on Sunday, which I didn't mind. I desperate need one after how it presently looks. My bangs are uneven and my hair's length is a little too long. Just in time for senior photos, too.

I'd like to learn a few other languages, especially Japanese. I've always wanted to learn that, but haven't gotten around it yet. I'm not sure who to turn to for that though. Anyone would like to teach me? Haha, there are translation books out there that I can purchase. It'll be a great asset.

Who wants to be my lets-learn-how-to-speak-Japanese buddy? LMAO.

My eyes are getting droopy. I'll add a few other things at a later time.

Bleh . . .

I finally watched the 3rd installment of THE MUMMY and it was alright. I wanted Rachel Weisz to return for this new movie, but apparently she didn't want to take the role anymore. So the one who took her spot didn't seem to impress me much. The movie was overall alright, although it could have been better. I still think you guys should watch it if you haven't had the chance to yet. I went with my parents, little cousin and my Godfather. He and I bought the food and I mistakenly bought two large sodas. Oh well, my Godfather had my back since my parents would of freaked out about that mistake. I owe him something to make it up. Lmao!

Dante texted me during the movie, which I had to text back afterwards. Her text said "I'm surrounded by men!" At first I thought she was at a bus stop or something and a group of pedophiles were around, but it turns out it was her dad's coworkers since she was at his work at the time. I hope we'll be able to watch Tropic Thunder soon. Oh, and also the Tim Tams video! I'm still looking forward to that.

At this moment, I'm feeling upset . . . and I think I know why. I'd say it, then again it just sounds ridiculous and pointless. I'm close to let some tears out. I'm not going to go through another random moment like this again. Last time I had this was probably a few weeks ago, though the reason was about someone else. I sat on my bed, staring at the ceiling and suddenly this gloomy feeling just went inside of me. I'm not even paying attention to my surroundings as of now. I can't get this off of my mind. It's getting quite annoying.

I'll probably edit this later when I'm feeling a little better.

Sorry for the short blog btw. I'll come up with a new one later today.

Thursday

This morning I woke up around 7 am, slept in for a while after my mom told me it's too early to go to work and get my paycheck. I woke up sometime around early 9 am, showered, ate cereal, checked my e-mail along with facebook & myspace. Dante and Florisse texted me as I was getting ready. I need unlimited text before I end up going over my limit. Then I was off to go to the bus stop. Once again, some men (specifically Latino) were staring at me again. I don't get it, am I really that funny looking or do they have the tendency to stare at younger ladies? Geez. One guy said hi to me as I was walking past him to go home. I ignored and I heard he said something, but I put the music a little louder so I wouldn't hear anymore. I'm so glad I'm not going to that bus stop for now. The thought of having such pedos looking at you is a bother.

Finally got to work around 11 am and this lady from UCLA came by to drop off the paychecks along with a subway gift card. I signed a few sheets before I got any of them and went off with two other student aids. Luckily, the bus came early so I quickly went in and relaxed. I read what was going on from the TV, which caught my attention majority of my time in the bus. Oh yeah, I saw this one girl reading 'Twilight" on the bus. I'm thinking of purchasing the set soon if I have time.

The heat was getting to me and I wore a freaking sweater. Haha stupid me, but for some reason I felt like wearing a sweater today. Mom bought some Mcdonalds and I only had the fries. She didn't know I'd come home early so I ended up eating that. I didn't mind, I wasn't really that hungry anyway.

Nicole called me and talked a little more about Warped Tour. Her mom says she'll think about it, but the problem is the ride. We're still thinking on how to get to Carson City, which is not far from L.A. I can ask my dad for a ride, then again he'll probably say "go as your mom instead." Usually my mom shoots down my plans and rarely lets me out, depending on who I go with. Ahh, I want to go to that concert by all means.

My interview for YDAPP turned out alright yesterday. I was sort of playing with my fingers as I spoke and kind of spaced out for a moment because I was getting nervous. Plus, I started getting teary, mostly on my right eye. I didn't know what was happening, so I used my side bangs to cover my right eye. Ernie noticed as he asked me questions before the interview was over. I told him I was having lack of sleep lately and said I need to gain more hours again. It's not looking great for my health right now. Overall, he said my personal statement was well-written and I'll be notified by early next week if I got the internship or not.

My mom just told me we're going to watch the new Mummy movie tonight with my little cousins. I'm looking forward to that since I need some fresh air and away from my house. I looked up the time for the movie to start from the Grove LA site. We'll be watching it around 7:40 pm. Hm, I'm somewhat excited. I heard it was alright, but kind of short. I'll believe it when I see it.

Last Day of Work/Warped Tour

I woke up sometime around 6 am and kept waking myself up every 10-15 minutes to make sure I wasn't late for the local bus. I got up around 7:30, had eggo waffles (which tasted pretty bleh), and got my stuff ready. While I was on the bus, this latino man kept staring at me. I was totally freaking out for a while that I kept ignoring until he finally left. I hate how people, even those you don't know at all can stare at you for the longest time. Each time I look over to see if I reached my bus stop, he would stare at me like a psychopath. I mean, what the heck is his problem? That wasn't the first time I went through that but that sort of experience was odd.

As I arrived to work, for the first two hrs, my supervisor Melissa talked to one of the office aids regarding her future plans. She recently got accepted to CSUN, but she was thinking of rejecting it due to her grandmother, who is 80 and may someday pass away. She's the only close relative to her and she felt that if she let her alone, it would be risky. To be honest, I know family comes first, but what about your own future? I wouldn't throw that away instantly. I truly understand where this girl is coming from considering that she has been through a rough time and living without her parents being around. That's difficult for any other person who is going through the same dilemma. Melissa and one of her new aids convinced her to take the offer to go to CSUN and live on campus in order to experience the college lifestyle. After talking about that for half an hr or so, I believe she decided to go there instead of Community College (I think it was called SouthWest or something). I think that was a good decision for her sake because I bet she would later regret to take it. She wants to be an RN nurse I think or be a part of the medical field. I remember my mother telling me to be a nurse like any other filipino parent, but I had my own goals to accomplish.

Melissa gave all of us a talk about College and it made me open my eyes a little more that College is absolutely a privilege to take. I mean, I don't necessarily need to go to College, but for my parents' sake, I have to just to make it out there for them. I know I've had them go through such bullcrap for me, and to pay it all back . . . this is what I'm hoping to give if I do make it. I'm planning to either go to one of the CSU's such as Fullerton, LA, or SLO. I'm not sure which one I'll go for now.

I'm truly going to miss being at Melissa's office with 3 other office aids. For the past month, they sure have made me feel more comfortable working there although it took me some time to adapt. I don't care if it was a short time, but it was worth it. I get my paycheck by tomorrow, which is $504 since there's a tax reduction. My mom says it's kind of little, but I don't care. Money is money and at least I received a lot more than I thought. I'm going to give $100 for my Lola, who is currently ill in Cebu City in request from my mother. The rest of the money, I'm either going to save it for future reference or some for the Warped Tour tickets.

Speaking of Warped Tour, I called Nicole regarding the concert to see if we can make it as a gift for her 17th birthday, which is 10 days after the 17th. There's a very good chance that we'll be able to go, along with our friend Ian and maybe my cousin Lily if she's allowed to go with us. I'm already excited, yet have not bought the tickets. I need to know ASAP so we'll be able to purchase the tickets on time. I am so stoked for it! Ugh, I want to go -.- I've never been to any of the Warped Tour concerts AT ALL, so this could be my chance.

I love these two guys <3




Hiro Mizushima & Jun Matsumoto(:

Supposedly, they look alike . . . anyone agree or disagree?


Here's the video about it.

Nothing New but Usual

I slept around 12:05 am last night, well technically today. That's the earliest I have slept for the past week now. I woke up exactly at 5:59 am and kept changing my alarm clock time from 7:00 to 7:20. I was too sleepy to wake up so early. I called my supervisor after that, and apologized for not calling yesterday for my absence. Thing is, my work ends tomorrow, officially. There's not much to do left anymore. I was amazed that it would end so early, then again I have enough time to enjoy for the rest of my summer before senior year. I'm getting my month's allowance by tomorrow along with my new bus pass. Sweet!

No dreams have yet entered my mind. I can go on a night without dreaming and wake up wondering if I had a dream or not. I tend to dream about anything out of the ordinary. There was one time where I dreamed of flying, and somehow I feel off. Then, I wake up and had my foot drop on the side of the bed. It's really weird that I actually felt that I fell off. Haha! That was some dream I had. I'm sure I had more that was twice as weird as that one.

It's 9:22 am and usually I'm asleep at this time. I'm amazed that I can't fall asleep as I used to. I'm fully wide awake and craving for some oreos. Either that, or some spam, eggs, and rice will do. I'm so Asian when it comes to that :P I need to cook better, and I mean . . . much better. I lack at anything that has to do with cooking. I'd probably burn my house down, no kidding. The least I can do is cook noodles. I wish I had the skills like my parents, especially my dad. He sure knows how to make a mean steak and sizzling shrimp. Now that I think of it, I'm craving for those too. I have such random cravings nowadays.

Now I'm sitting here talking to Simon and Dante on Skype, but Dante is too busy watching another Heath Ledger film. He was an outstanding actor, in my opinion. 'The Dark Knight" has again rocked another weekend for the box office, 3 weeks in a row. I find that amazing since this movie is soon to beat Titanic. Dante watched 'The Dark Knight" three times in a row. I only saw it once and I'm tempted to watch it again. My parents and I are planning to watch the new Mummy movie sometime this week with my little cousins. I'm sure it'll turn fine, despite the fact that I haven't been watching any new movies with my parents since Forbidden Kingdom.

Last night, I saw the Teen Choice Awards and some of the votes were rigged. I'm sure most of us right now are wondering why M&M Cru beat AC/DC when it clearly showed that AC/DC rocked the place with such sick moves. M&M couldn't even top any of that for sure. Since Miley Cyrus was the host of the show and won some awards, I'm sure that losing to AC/DC would of made her look horrible. Lucky for her, they won that battle even though they didn't amaze me. Actually, I don't find it lucky . . . I find it unfair. AC/DC deserved to take that victory, but I guess it was all out of fun or was it just a stunt to make Cyrus look superior? Bleh, whatever.

I was on Youtube and I came across this:


I should watch some of these.

[Edited at 4:18 pm]

For this weekend, I'd like to go to Cue Studios either in Rowland Heights or Arcadia. I've always wanted to get a photobooth at either of those places. Thing is, I want my cousin Lily to go with me. She and I talked about going there before. So I hope this weekend or sometime this month we'll be able to go. Besides, our parents are okay with the fact that she and I can go out to places anyway.

Just earlier I heard my mom ranting about this family issue going on with one of my Lolo's. I'm getting a headache listening to her yell about the situation. I'd go to my room and use my laptop, but it's too hot in there and I'd rather not waste any more electricity for the AC. I'll be staying in the living room for a little longer. This is getting tiresome. Plus, This has been going on for the past year now.

I'm having a problem with how much consumption of food I need for each day. As I've mentioned from my last blog or so, I've been getting random cravings. It's crazy! It's not that I'm concerned with the way I look (okay sometimes I do), but how that affects my health is the issue. I try to stay out of the fatty foods or anything unnecessary to eat, but the temptation gets to me. I do have a limit to how much food I should consume, but since it's summer I don't really have much to do in this house but eat and watch dramas. I am that much of a lazy person.

Speaking of dramas, I'm nearly done with the second season for Gokusen 2. It's going pretty good and something worthwhile. I don't even realize that time can go quick within a day. I am way into these sort of dramas :P I hope by the end of this month, I can get through at least 10-15 dramas? I know, that's a little too much (or alot) for my eyes to handle, but hey . . . I'd rather not sit around and do nothing for the remainder of summer. Now that I think of it, this makes me sound like a total couch potato.

I forgot what else I wrote from earlier because stupid Blogger didn't automatically save everything I said. This is the most I can remember. Darn it.

I'm going to take a quick nap to get my eyes fully rested. I woke up too early today, so I need my beauty rest without any interruptions. I've been getting way too many lately.

Typical

I slept around 4:30 am today after my phone call with Florisse. We talked for 3 hours from one topic to the next. It was interesting and hilarious at the same time. I believe that would be the longest I've spoke to anyone on the phone in so long. An hour ago, she called me while my phone was charging. So I called back to ask what's up and she mentions about that she may end up playing Maplestory with some of the people I know from skype. Seriously, I hate that game with a passion. I don't see what's interesting about it, other than leveling your character. She says she was joking, but then again I have this feeling she's going to end up playing that game like everyone else. Haha, but I guess I'll be only one of the few who hasn't played that game yet. It's like some sort of a disease from a bug that bit you. Things aren't really the same with them these days.

I realized my mom left to go to Bally's for a workout, so I ended up going on the internet to talk to Deborah and Jayther. Then, maybe an hour and a half later, she comes home without me knowing. It's like she appeared out of nowhere. I didn't hear the door open or anything, which was odd. I guess I'm going to end up doing some small chores, which is rare for me. Lol! Anna texted me while I was asleep regarding the sign ups for the Internship. I called back, but no answer. She and I haven't spoken for the past 3 weeks now. I keep forgetting to call her back. I'll try calling her sometime today when she isn't busy.

My wrist still hurts from the other day. I can move it in circular motion, but the pain is still there. I'm not sure if bengay is effective enough to let the pain leave. I can however stretch, yet the pain starts hurting even more. Maybe I need to stretch often so I wouldn't be going through this sort of thing right now. There's this nutrition plan sheet on the side of my fridge that mentions what to eat in the morning, afternoon, and evening. It's like reducing chloresterol, and the food choices aren't that awful. I may have to ask my dad to drive me to a nearby store to get some of these items, especially the yogurt. I haven't had that for the longest.


I've been having such weird dreams about certain people. I don't know what's the meaning of it actually. It comes and goes I guess. I tend to forget my dreams the next day since it become blurry to remember. Plus, I've been sleeping really late than the usual. This is the worst habit I've had thus far. I need my proper sleep, yet again I enjoy the fact that I'm staying up late where no one's up. By the time school starts, I may need to sleep around 10:30 or 11:00 pm. I doubt that'll work because I have the tendency to sleep a little past that.

I've been putting "Moving Mountains" on repeat for the past hour. I somehow got drawn to thiss song. The lyrics speak for itself. I wish my Ipod was working again so I can get on the bus with songs going through my ear as I get to work. I've been using my phone for the radio/walkman and the earphones are a bother. The wire is not balanced. I have to keep putting the earphones properly so they won't fall off again. Bleh, it's getting annoying.

I might have to edit this later if something else comes up :]

Boring Sunday /Updates

I slept around nearly 4 am today after my skype phone call with Jayther, Jason, Sarah, Leo and Chris. I think I'm missing one person on that list, but yeah. It was interesting, though I was falling asleep for a while. It was all good though.

So I was on imeem.com, and I came across this song.

I actually like this song by Usher.


Today, I was suppose to head to Universal Studios with my relatives who just came from the Philippines, but I was still half awake and sore from yesterday's gathering at Balboa lake. I decided to stay home and rest. It's been hot so far today. I hate this kind of heat, then again it is summer. I might as well make myself useful for the time being. I'm watching a new Drama called "Gokusen 2", but there's like 3 different ones with the same storyline. I may have to watch the 1st and 3rd one. My eyes are going to burn right after I watch these dramas. Haha, I might as well spend this whole month or most of it watching Asian dramas, simply because I seem to have an interest more than I used to.

According to one of my teachers, whom I have been kept in touch with through Facebook, school starts on September 2nd. That's weird because I go to a year-round school, and we start a week before September comes. I'm hoping it is the 2nd so that I can have enough time to do things I've been needing to do all summer. I may have to do a list on that right after I discuss about one more thing.

I'm really not liking my job at the moment. I only work about twice a week. That's not considered a job for me, nor is it part time. I feel so useless being there. I mean, what's there to do when apparently, the supervisor gives me the littlest things to work on. I have a few more weeks before this is over, but geez. I can't continue to work like this by then. My mom even asked me why I work a few days now. On a brighter note, I'm going to get paid sometime this upcoming week. Not sure how much it'll be, but I'm sure it'll be good I suppose.

I have to get my permit over with already. I haven't studied as much as I did. I may need a couple more days, until I'm fully ready to take it. I know it's common sense, then again I'd like to make sure I have the proper time to study and get the knowledge into my mind. My mom's been waiting for my response on what date to take it, so maybe either this week or the week after. We'll see how things will be.

What-to-Do:
1. Starting this coming weekend, hang out with my cousin, Lily until school starts. So maybe every weekend, we'll try to go to some places since our parents don't mind.

2. Interview with Ernie for the YDAPP Internship - 08/06.

3. Get some school materials earlier than last minute.

4. Start exercising to lose the FAT before school starts.

5. Spend some quality time with parents after a long time.

6. Get rid of my old habits before summer ends.

7. Senior photos, which is I don't know when. I may get a mail eventually regarding that.

I should add more photos to make my blogs interesting : -)
More to edit later.

Throwing Thoughts Out of the Way

For the past few days, I've been pretty busy with other things.

1. I've been watching this Japanese drama called "Absolute Boyfriend" and I recommend anyone who reads this to watch it. It's that good, yet the ending is...eh. Still, watch it and you won't regret it. I spent a few days, maybe about 2 days finishing this drama. I had to find some episodes online since the site I currently go on for these dramas didn't have those episodes. My mind has been so occupied with dramas other than this, it's keeping me away from the negativity, which is good.

2. My relatives from the Philippines arrived around Wednesday night. They slept over until yesterday and my parents and I took them to some places, such as the Observatory. I haven't been there in ages, so it was great to go back there again. I looked through this telescope of Jupiter and its moons, which was fascinating. The guy kept repeatedly telling everyone to not touch the telescope, yet some people didn't get the memo. Overall, things have been going well. I'm going to see them again tomorrow before they head to Las Vegas on monday.

3. I got home from Balboa Park 2 hrs ago. It was fun, considering that it was pretty hot, then the temperature later cooled down in the evening. I played volleyball with some of my relatives, ate, chilled, and chatted. Everything went swell, though not everyone went. I enjoyed every moment of it. Hopefully these kind of moments or gatherings happen again soon. I miss them dearly.

4. I finally turned in that application for the Internship a few days ago. I have an interview set for next Wednesday. I hope I get that internship and the person who is interviewing me is none other than my coordinator from the previous program I was in. I can't wait for this! Things are starting to turn well one step at a time. I'm happy so far.

Oh and Happy Birthday to my buddy, Martin! He just turned 17 today.